30 days!
Mr B
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Join Date: Jan 2014
Location: Omaha Nebraska
Posts: 60
30 days!
Have made it to 30 days of being sober!!! I am grateful to be here!
I couldn't of done it without you guys, IOP, AA and the fellowship!
Thank you all for the kind support!!!
Now to continue on to 1 day at time and march onto the next 30 days!!!
I couldn't of done it without you guys, IOP, AA and the fellowship!
Thank you all for the kind support!!!
Now to continue on to 1 day at time and march onto the next 30 days!!!
xxxxxx
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Join Date: Dec 2013
Location: McKinlyville, Ca.
Posts: 214
anxiety uproar. Xanax?
Congrats on the 30 days.
I am going to post this a few places.
I am on DAY 7. Last night was rough. I feel like ice is in my lungs. WHY? Im anxious and on edge since 6am. I slept 2hours. Even my husband stayed up with me till 2am.
why is it so easy for him to stop drinking with me. He drank beer daily, but the day i stopped....HE STOPPED..Why do I feel bad that my drinking problem, anger and resentment from my past stop him from having a few beers. He does not mind or complain..WHY do I feel so guilty. I start AA meetings tomorrow night. I have been going to AA since I was 16...cuz I went with my father when I was 16 for him to get sober(4th time worked).I was a sponsor for a good friend 7 years ago(she still clean n sober). Funny how I know all about AA, but not for myself...anyways I start the program for myself tomorrow. MY 17 YEAR OLD SON IS GOING WITH ME. Is that wrong? He was the one who looked up the meeting, and offered to go and drive.
i.e. I raised my son alone till got married 6 years ago to great man and had a second child. point is 17 year old is my hero and center focus. AS far as today I am doing this for him. He looks up to me still and loves me so much. If I fail, he has nothing to look up to. I have to become sober and be that HERO. My son deserves to have hope back. It is up to me NOW. Right now I realize my son lived in it the deepest. i was never mean drunk, just annoying, embarrasing, loud, center of attention drunk. My son told me would rather of just had mean drunk that yelled and past out compared to a silly, drunk happy go lucky mom
embarrasing him and myself. GREAT...now another thing for me to stress about...uugghh..My stress and anxiety are always under control. 
I AM SO IGNORANT.
Is it bad to ask my Doctor for xanax. Or is that cheating? Im so confused. Please help..
I am going to post this a few places.
I am on DAY 7. Last night was rough. I feel like ice is in my lungs. WHY? Im anxious and on edge since 6am. I slept 2hours. Even my husband stayed up with me till 2am.why is it so easy for him to stop drinking with me. He drank beer daily, but the day i stopped....HE STOPPED..Why do I feel bad that my drinking problem, anger and resentment from my past stop him from having a few beers. He does not mind or complain..WHY do I feel so guilty. I start AA meetings tomorrow night. I have been going to AA since I was 16...cuz I went with my father when I was 16 for him to get sober(4th time worked).I was a sponsor for a good friend 7 years ago(she still clean n sober). Funny how I know all about AA, but not for myself...anyways I start the program for myself tomorrow. MY 17 YEAR OLD SON IS GOING WITH ME. Is that wrong? He was the one who looked up the meeting, and offered to go and drive.
i.e. I raised my son alone till got married 6 years ago to great man and had a second child. point is 17 year old is my hero and center focus. AS far as today I am doing this for him. He looks up to me still and loves me so much. If I fail, he has nothing to look up to. I have to become sober and be that HERO. My son deserves to have hope back. It is up to me NOW. Right now I realize my son lived in it the deepest. i was never mean drunk, just annoying, embarrasing, loud, center of attention drunk. My son told me would rather of just had mean drunk that yelled and past out compared to a silly, drunk happy go lucky mom
embarrasing him and myself. GREAT...now another thing for me to stress about...uugghh..My stress and anxiety are always under control. I AM SO IGNORANT.Is it bad to ask my Doctor for xanax. Or is that cheating? Im so confused. Please help..
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What wonderful news dbj - and it'll keep getting better. I felt so encouraged with 30 days behind me. 
kflee - Emotions are all over the place in these early days & that's normal - but getting sober to be someone else's hero doesn't usually last for the long haul. I do think you should talk to your doctor about your anxiety.
kflee - Emotions are all over the place in these early days & that's normal - but getting sober to be someone else's hero doesn't usually last for the long haul. I do think you should talk to your doctor about your anxiety.
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Join Date: Dec 2013
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Thanks Hevyn. I may have worded that wrong.Or I am just scrambled mess today anyways. I am doing it for myself, my son is center focal point and main purpose for the intensity and passion in my heart. I believe that I have to be doing this for myself and only myself before I can even think of starting on working on my past. At last I feel those are the right words. I am not fully there yet, but I do know I AM NOT GOING TO FAIL.
My doctor knows about my drinking and offered me(doc knows about my anxiety) for xanax for the month ONLY, and is going to test my liver, so I am supervised from doctor, husband, in laws...
I still want to pull my hair out...and scream..and run around waving my hands..
My doctor knows about my drinking and offered me(doc knows about my anxiety) for xanax for the month ONLY, and is going to test my liver, so I am supervised from doctor, husband, in laws...
I still want to pull my hair out...and scream..and run around waving my hands..
Mr B
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Join Date: Jan 2014
Location: Omaha Nebraska
Posts: 60
Hi FreeOwl,
IOP is Intensive outpatient treatment! I go M,W,F from 6-9 then be going to meetings on Tuesday and Thursdays. Saturday and Sunday been going to 2-3 meetings each day!!!
My home group is awesome and where I got me a sponsor!
IOP is Intensive outpatient treatment! I go M,W,F from 6-9 then be going to meetings on Tuesday and Thursdays. Saturday and Sunday been going to 2-3 meetings each day!!!
My home group is awesome and where I got me a sponsor!
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