not2late

Dear SR. You helped me back in August. You helped me stop for 3 months. Alcoholism has snuck back in. I had 5 shots of vodka tonight and I don't feel like I ever stopped. I loved it when I was clean. So why do it again? I hate myself for being weak. I loved myself for being stong. I need to go clean for the year..new year. I need to know that I cannot touch the stuff. I need to know that if I don't do this I have lost myself forever. To those of you trying and struggling. It used ti be fun. Now its just a burden. Just stop. Never go back. Dear SR ..THAKS FOR BEING HERE...AGAIN.

Hevyn

Peaches - it's so good to see you. It's brave to make this admission and want to try again.
We are here to help - it's going to be a great new year & fresh new start for you.

stevie88

Welcome back peaches....Hopefully you are here for the long run this time.

diffingo911

Welcome back, peaches58-Try to NOT Hate Yourself for ANY reason. You are NOT Weak-Alcoholism is a VERY Powerful Disease. This is why None of Us can do it alone-

Thepatman

Peaches, back in August I was on my own relapse so never got to know you.

But I'm back since October and now so are you! You can also have a sober new year, let's do this!

Ornithology

You were a big help to me when we both stopped drinking back in August. It sounds like you have the mindset to make it stick this time, good for you.

Dee74

Welcome back Peaches

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IWillWin

Welcome back to the lifeboat. Grab an oar and start rowing. We will pick up the slack while you gain strength

Cathryn2001

Tomorrow is a new day, a new year . . . you've got this! xo

forabetterlife

SR has been a lifesaver for me. But of course it's always up to us and us alone to get through those hard times. It's so easy to think, after some sober time, that a few drinks is no big deal. But it's never worth it. You know we all have been there. Tomorrow's a brand new day AND year, perfect time to go for it again..I'll be right there with you

not2late

I thought I could do this on my own but it's obvious I need you guys. Thank you for your responses. In addition I was looking forward to losing weight when I stopped drinking but it didn't happen. I just replaced eatiing with drinking. One addictive behavior for another. Another reason to be down. But..enough of that. There is no more of anything in the house..I'm done. Tomorrow os a new day a new month and a new year. Bless you all.

Renarde

Welcome back!

ReadyAndAble

Good for you, getting yourself back on track!

Thanks for reminding me of that. I think maybe that was the single biggest realization for me. It was liberating too, because once I stopped buying into the fantasized ideal of drinking, I realized I wasn't giving up anything worth missing, just misery and regret. Recovery isn't a sacrifice; it's an escape hatch. Glad to see you're ready to step back through it.