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Hello Snarky. I relate to a lot of your story, perhaps most with the "facade" aspect. I not only hid my drinking well, but I actually pretended to be a non-drinker. I'm so embarassed to admit that. I also blacked out once and in the morning realized I drove. During the last year, my wife and I had some terrible fights (once in front of our kids in the middle of the night). I even woke up in the drunk tank once, not remembering how I got there. Yet, somehow, I kept it secret. Such a massive, painful secret. And I tried so many things to convince myself that I did not have a problem, from taking a day or two off here and there, to, man there are too many to list. 6 weeks ago it hit me like a ton of bricks: alcohol is, without a doubt, destroying my life, piece by piece, a slow disintegration. I am so much happier and optimistic now that I have chosen this direction, sobriety. I think you will be too. Welcome to the journey, the new path.