Arabell

Hi louise and headlump ive had great day not had time to even think of a drink just finished yoga and im shattered but nicely so. I never want to have another drinkits poison its evil. I wish i cud feel like this all the time think for me i need to keep busy then dont hav time to even think. Dont no bout anyone else but i turn into a monster wen i drink im horrible.

Louise82

Glad to hear you had such a good day yesterday Arabell.

Gilmer

Hope your day is going well, Arabell!

Arabell

Omg i hav now ****** it my daughter has left me my husband seems to luv it how bizarre u think hed like to think of me drunk i wana b free i di t like him i want to b free i dont even like him wonder if he is my problem trugger etc he feels all and mughty and so does my daughters boyfriend they dont consider i am ill sod erm there all crap xxxx

Louise82

Arabell, once you've stopped drinking for long enough you'll be able to look at your relationships with your husband and your daughter and your feelings towards them better and with a clearer head.

I'm sorry you're going through this but the longer we stay sober and work on our recovery the better our relationships with our family get as they see us changing for the better and we learn new ways to deal with them. Are you still sober? Sending you massive (((hugs))) x

Arabell

Thank u louise ur rite id done it again had few drinks no idea y it just seems to take over again ive now woke up with sore head feel ashamed of myself and weak

Arabell

O dear louise ive gone downhill again my hubby and daughter are being horrible wont talk to me which makes things whole lot worse

Arabell

My husband is completly ignoring me so is my daughter so no support now just me and my dogs nowt new ther beleve me

Gilmer

Next time post here as soon as you're tempted, not just after you've slipped!

You will get faster support from the "Class of January 2014": there are lots of others in the same boat, and the encouragement and camaraderie is great.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...art-4-a-7.html

You might also benefit from some face to face support like A.A.

Arabell

Excuse my ignorance wot does camaraderie mean

Gilmer

Good spirit--good times.

Gilmer

Keep posting here, too! Just keep going and don't pick up a drink--eventually your husband will thaw out when he sees you trying. I'm thinking a group for families like Al-Anon would be helpful for him, too, to help him understand that sometime sobriety takes a few attempts. They might give him tips for helping you, too.

Louise82

Hi Arabell, how are you doing? I agree with Gilmer. Posting on the Class of Jan 2014 thread as well as on this one will help give you the support you need. And yes, please remember to post on here before you pick up a drink. Even if you really don't feel like posting, just try it.