jmd003

I've been on this forum before years ago and a lot has changed in those years for the worse. I've been struggling with getting sober. At one point I was doing pretty well until the Christmas dinner of last night where they used wine. Today I just wanted to drink, that one last time you know? So now I'm drinking again and horrified to get back into the pattern I used to be in. Tomorrow I'll re-boot. No need for Jan. 1st for making changes, tomorrow is fine.

Hello.

Imabuleva

Welcome to SR. I hope you fine peace with your struggles.

BillinSaratoga

Jmd - best time to stop is now. I too struggle as we all do but you can do it! Folks here are great support, I hope you find your way

jmd003

From the outside I'd tell anyone to stop now while they're in the middle of a binge, but being in one, I just can't stop. Why is this?

PurpleKnight

We are addicted, we drink to get drunk, we don't have 1 beer or 1 glass, we have the case of beer or the bottle! . . . so as long as there is alcohol to drink, there is no stopping.

I hope you make the decision to stop after a good night's sleep tonight, SR is here to offer support when you need it.

KateL

Well done for stopping now. Try not to beat yourself up xxxx

Bubovski

Good idea to re boot pre New Year.
Alcohol sure is a devious brew when we consume it.....far better not to pick up that first glass, in any circumstance!

Dee74

Welcome back jmd

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jmd003

Today is my official day 1. I ended up drinking 3 bottles of wine last night. Hangover today, surprisingly not that bad. It was a one night binge instead of an extended period so maybe that's why I feel relatively good.

But no more. I remember the pattern I was in a few years ago and it was a nightmare. Back then, I would be drinking right now again. And tomorrow. The day after tomorrow. Etc. Until I would get to a day where I couldn't get out of bed anymore. As soon as I recovered, the pattern started again though.

That horrible experience is something I never want to go back to. I slipped last night and this slipping has to stop too. 3 bottles of wine... That's not healthy.

So day 1 again with a valuable lesson learned.

HeadLump

Congratulations on Day 1 and for getting off the slippery slope. Here to support you

FamilyMan2153

Once the pain of yesterday outweighs the fear of tomorrow we are ready to live today. Good luck on your journey. Hoping you now know what triggers you to drink and have something in place when alcohol wants to pull that trigger. Hang tough!!