DJSid

I was feeling a bit depressed after not going to hang out with the family because I don't trust myself around alcohol yet. Today is the third day of not drinking after drinking every day for 25 years with only brief periods of sobriety which lasted only a few months at a time. The thought of drinking pops in my head here and there but its not as bad as the first day and today is better than yesterday. I went to my first meeting an hour ago. I feel so much better after going. There were only four people there which made it easier to open up and talk at the table. We read the second chapter "There is a solution" followed by discussion. There was allot of experience and good advice shared. After the meeting I exchanged numbers with one of the guys who has been sober for over 8 years who lives in the area. I am looking forward to coming out of my shell and making a new network of sober friends. Drinking used to be fun but it got to the point where I spent most of my drinking and drugging time sitting alone in my apartment. Even when I would get invited to a party or out to the bar I would wish I was home alone within an hour of being amongst a group of people. I just wanted to share my experience with anyone who is as new to this as I am. As I said its only been three days but I haven't drank and I took a deep breath and headed out the door and went to my first meeting. I woke up Sunday morning after getting drunk one last time and looked in the mirror and said, "Today is the first day of the rest of your life." I know it sounds corny but it was kind of an emotional moment for me. Someone once told me there are 365 days in the year, if you do one thing every day to improve your live you will have a bright future. That can apply to allot of things but Im going to use that in my recovery.

PurpleKnight

I'm glad the meeting was productive!

I was the same, I drank alone for years, wasn't interested in going out and socialising with people, it seemed like such a chore, just wanted a bottle and a glass, and black out into bed in peace!

I think you made a great decision ditching that party earlier, you've staying strong, pushed through, and your right, today is the first day of the rest of your life!!

Great job!!

RustyLugnut

That's great that the meeting helped you, and that it sounds like you may have had a sponsor. I just got out of detox today and - I'm a very shy person - had ended up not only looking forward to the meetings but found myself happily contributing eventually. Best of luck and keep strong.