Sick and tired
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Sick and tired
I'm just coming back around. Scared lonely and tired. I had ten years of recovery where I lived life beyond my wildest dreams..was blessed with a wife and 3 wonderful children. Needless to say I'm on the verge of loosing it all. I spent 40 days in treatment and didn't last a week. I ******* hate this disease, I'm letting it ruin my life. Just trying to reach out in anyway I can...
Sober since 10th April 2012
Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: Perth, Western Australia
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Hi Rocco, you've come to the right place for support. There are many people here who have been in your shoes, and have successfully recovered. There are also many who have convinced themselves they can drink again and paid the price.
You have had 10 years of recovery so you know that you can do it. You also know that the addiction is telling you you can't.
No-one can stop for you, so I hope you can want it badly enough to do it for yourself.
You have had 10 years of recovery so you know that you can do it. You also know that the addiction is telling you you can't.
No-one can stop for you, so I hope you can want it badly enough to do it for yourself.
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Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: England
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Hi Rocco and welcome. You sound as though you do have a wonderful family which you obviously love so you have to take back control for your drinking. At the moment it is controlling you. You know there is no easy solution but you also know what you are capable of with 10 years of sobriety before today. I hope you can find the solutions before you destroy what you have. I hope you find some answers here.
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Join Date: Jun 2012
Location: Gatineau, QC, CA
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Welcome to SR!
At 16 days in myself, I am now starting to see booze as something that caused me grief beyond words but also, in a strange way, made me a better person. This person now appreciates life and sees it as a gift not to be taken for granted. A gift that we can either ruin, or build a great life over.
My Christmas will be simple, sober, and full of little joys, like looking at my 7 year old son opening his gifts... With sober eyes for the first time in my life.
At 16 days in myself, I am now starting to see booze as something that caused me grief beyond words but also, in a strange way, made me a better person. This person now appreciates life and sees it as a gift not to be taken for granted. A gift that we can either ruin, or build a great life over.
My Christmas will be simple, sober, and full of little joys, like looking at my 7 year old son opening his gifts... With sober eyes for the first time in my life.
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