Words you never used when you were using
Words you never used when you were using
Since I quit drinking, I'm beginning, gradually, occasionally, with much fear & trembling, to write/say out loud (that one's harder) two words:
Hope
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Formerly, these concepts had no place in my world.
Any words or concepts you're opening up to?
P.S. I'm putting this in writing because I know I'll want to take it back and this way I can't lie that I never said it.
Hope
Friend
Formerly, these concepts had no place in my world.
Any words or concepts you're opening up to?
P.S. I'm putting this in writing because I know I'll want to take it back and this way I can't lie that I never said it.
Yeah future is a good one. When I was in my twenties and thirties I had resigned myself to being dead around 40 - ish. I am now 55.
The second word would be empathy. I never felt it much for others because I was too busy worrying about my own situation. Now I worry about every one, I saw a girl crying outside Victoria station recently and asked if she was ok. She said, no but she would be and thanked me for asking. I wouldnlt have even noticed when I was a drunken blob, I don't know if I cheered her up a bit by asking but I much prefer to be like I am now than the way I was. Even if I am a softy.
The second word would be empathy. I never felt it much for others because I was too busy worrying about my own situation. Now I worry about every one, I saw a girl crying outside Victoria station recently and asked if she was ok. She said, no but she would be and thanked me for asking. I wouldnlt have even noticed when I was a drunken blob, I don't know if I cheered her up a bit by asking but I much prefer to be like I am now than the way I was. Even if I am a softy.
Yeah future is a good one. When I was in my twenties and thirties I had resigned myself to being dead around 40 - ish. I am now 55.
The second word would be empathy. I never felt it much for others because I was too busy worrying about my own situation. Now I worry about every one, I saw a girl crying outside Victoria station recently and asked if she was ok. She said, no but she would be and thanked me for asking. I wouldnlt have even noticed when I was a drunken blob, I don't know if I cheered her up a bit by asking but I much prefer to be like I am now than the way I was. Even if I am a softy.
The second word would be empathy. I never felt it much for others because I was too busy worrying about my own situation. Now I worry about every one, I saw a girl crying outside Victoria station recently and asked if she was ok. She said, no but she would be and thanked me for asking. I wouldnlt have even noticed when I was a drunken blob, I don't know if I cheered her up a bit by asking but I much prefer to be like I am now than the way I was. Even if I am a softy.
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Peace. Whenever I drank I would wake up not knowing what horrible things I might have done, so the phone ringing, knocking at the door, people on the street, email, police,etc. I was all terrified of. Now I'm not.
Concepts:
I've found out I really am a morning person, I love to get up early after a good eight hours sleep, the idea of a morning of raging thirst and headache or worse vomiting, is absolutely repulsive now.
Self care. I've never been a girly-girl and I didn't totally neglect myself before but now I take time to look after myself because I realise that my health and constitution are actually a gift.
I've found out I really am a morning person, I love to get up early after a good eight hours sleep, the idea of a morning of raging thirst and headache or worse vomiting, is absolutely repulsive now.
Self care. I've never been a girly-girl and I didn't totally neglect myself before but now I take time to look after myself because I realise that my health and constitution are actually a gift.
Courage, I love this thread!
Happy would be one... Never in a million years did I think I would get there.
Hopeful, like you and KateL, I was the same. Never thought I would make it out of my 40s. I'm only 37 now so I still have time, but I was just going to smoke and drink it all away.
Content. I have what I need all right here.
Happy would be one... Never in a million years did I think I would get there.
Hopeful, like you and KateL, I was the same. Never thought I would make it out of my 40s. I'm only 37 now so I still have time, but I was just going to smoke and drink it all away.
Content. I have what I need all right here.
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