Raider

First I'll say 15 days sober.

Question: my first two weeks out of rehab I went totally crazy. I did things I never do, said things, just generally acted out. I drank. I had my faith shaken to the core. I'm back to normal (whatever that is) now. It took the full 14 days for me to come back to earth.

Is this anything anyone else experienced after a 30 day inpatient ?

jdooner

I am going to skip the question and just say a big congratulations - your post made my night - thanks. Good for you!!!

Raider

J. Thanks my friend!!!

Mikie9

I am not sure what you are asking

I know when I have quit before and went back to the life, I too went hard at it. Same with cigarettes, anytime I quit, when I went back to smoking I went back to it hard. I guess it is a "making up of lost time" for our av.

Sorta silly when what we tried for, was quitting yet we went back and went back even more uncontrolled than before.

Raider

I didn't go back at it in my usual fashion. I drank five times, got drunk once. But during those two weeks, yes that's the word, I was uncontrollable or, out of control. Thanks Mikie. Does that clarify.

Mikie9

It does. I can't drink any alcohol or I am right back where I started, wanting to be where I am right now.

It's like typing a long worded story that I spent lots of time on, and not saving it when i close the document

gonna share your sig, I like it

jdooner

BTW - if your going to continue with step work this is your first step.

30 days in rehab - get out life is unmanageable your doing things out of character to deal with the chaos. You drink to get back to normalcy - highlights the powerlessness over the alcohol - viola your first step.

doggonecarl

I never did 30 day rehab, but I was far from normal 14 days after my last drink?

You are going to experience a lot of ups and downs in the next few weeks. Don't let it get you back on that crazy train.

malcolmsloan

Good to hear from you Raider. I don't think I'm qualified to answer your question, but I'm truly glad that you're doing well. Onward!

Dee74

I never did rehab either but I'm glad 'normal' you is back Raider

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Mizzuno

I can say that the first few months of sobriety are quite the ride. You are doing well. Welcome back to you!

Ptcapote

Also so happy to see this Raider!

I never did rehab either but my first couple of months were an emotional rollercoaster. Good thing is that the more days you put between you and that last drink, the more time you give your body to adjust and start working properly again. It really does get better (although not always easier initially) as more time passes. As Carl said, there is no reason for you to ever get back on the crazy train again. We all know where it leads...

Fifteen days is awesome. Keep going.

Big hugs to you tonight!

neferkamichael

Raider, 15 days sober is FANTASTIC, congratulations. Rootin for ya.

foolsgold66

15 days is wonderful, Raider. I did 28 days in rehab in 2004. I was scared of my own shadow for a month or two after, pretty much the opposite of you. Have no idea what any of it means other than we are just people. Some of the folks I went to rehab with got drunk on the way home, so there is definitely a variety of reactions afterwards.

Raider

I find this list disturbingly right on:



10 Signals You're Heading for a Relapse

1. You forget what craving alcohol feels like.

2. You forget what a hangover feels like.

3. You forget how completely demoralized and miserable you were in your last days of drinking.

4.. The wreckage you caused in your drinking life is a distant memory.

5. You get bored listening to the same old people in the same old AA meetings. So you stop going to meetings.

6. You begin to isolate. You spend more and more time alone, up in your (alcoholic) head.

7. You stop calling or spending time with your sober friends.

8. Your life is good. You're busy. You're enjoying the fruits of your hard work in recovery.

9. Nothing bad happens. You're just fine, thank you very much!

10. Maybe you're not an alcoholic after all/anymore. What harm could one little drink do....?

Whiterhino24

When i got out of treatment i had all these hopes and thoughts of how things were going to be but it was the complete oppissite of what i expected. I was shaken to my core and did not know what to do so i relapsed. I finally reached out to get help and i have been doing much better. I still struggle with whats going on in my life and the damage that i caused but i cant change that i can only prove myself from here on.

mecanix

Raider ,
much like others i've not done a 30 day rehab , i've done pom tidily blah-blah days in a row sober tho .. whatever thats worth ..
I wouldn't be surprised at any kind of craziness going on in our heads, typed on here or coming out of our mouths for quite some time to come .

Some things in life can help centre us , hold us to fundamental truths , look for that in your own life and world and make it part of your routine is what i try to do .

Keep on living and learning ,

Bestwishes, m

Leana

Raider
I am so glad to see your post!

I don't have personal experience with rehab so can't help that but just wanted to say great job on 15 days. Hang in there!

Notimetoloose

Hi raider,
I haven't been to rehab in years.
It is a big change and then to come back out into not such a protective environment. Takes an adjustment.
I was also thinking, some of the meds they give you can have a shelf life in your system for several weeks after they are stopped.

soberhawk

Concrats on the 15 days Raider.

I am glad you found your way to “mormal”.

I found there were many ups and downs in the beginning, it takes some patience to get to stable ground.