Tiptree

It's soberbia, not Soberia, my mistake

Mizzuno

I am ever so glad to see that you are still posting. Alcohol detox can very hard for some people. If things start to get weird in any way, please seek out medical attention. I commend you for taking this step.

Lawood

Well three walks and a least a gallon of water. A little shaky headache some muscle cramping. I think once this leave my system the harder part will be the mental. I so do appreciate the support

Kat60

Glad to see you here Lawood!!

Keep up the good work and know we are all here for support!!

If it gets scary, seek medical help.

You CAN do this!!!

breath

Don't think you are unique. You aren't. And as someone who has been there the one truth I can tell is you can't get help until you are ready and become a seeker. Until then none of our preaching will do much. THe best we can do is tell you that when you are ready we will all have the hand of help extended and do everything we can. First you must be willing to take our hand. Wishing you Acceptance.

breath

Great! I didn't catch up on this thread...way to go LAwood; if you haven't heard yet please join us in the chat rooms tonight for our online meeting @ 9pm EST; it is a great thing. Again, keep up the good work One Day At A Time

Lawood

Well it has been over 24 hours now so I can at least say i did it for a day. I am going to say goodnight make my last cup of tea and eat my last orange. I will not say it has been easy but this is the first time I haven't drank for a day. I want to say once again thank u so much I really don't know if I could have done it or at least attempt to have done it with out all of your support. I hope for just a good night sleep tonight, but I also hope how much you know how each and everyone of you helped a stranger.

Lawood

Thank you

360shoes

You are not alone Lawood. Not anymore. You are with us. And we are with you.

Welcome. You are with people who understand.

(((Hug)))

Nonsensical

Word.

Tiptree

No matter what you are part of SR now and we will be here

Kat60

Come back after a good nights rest and, yep, we'll still be here tomorrow!
Congrats on Day 1 :-)

MythOfSisyphus

Congrats! That first day is epic. The first time I actually fought the battle and went a whole day without drinking I felt like I'd just climbed Mt. Everest! It does get easier as you go along.

Lawood

So I guess I am reaching out again. I placed myself in a medical detox center because I could not do it on my own. I was good for a few weeks but the past two days I have relapsed and I don't know why. I think I was tiring to prove I didn't have a problem. I don't know. I went to some a.a meetings but way to emotional for me so I stopped going. Now I just don't know what my damn problem is. Life is not hard so why do I do this I don't know. I really think part of me is dead and I just don't face it so it creeps up on me like a ghost haunting a house. Am I lying to myself Question of the day I guess. I really don't understand why I am not strong enough to kill this demon. I think that bothers me a lot

Pipefish

Nope, never able to beat it all by myself either. Definitely need other people to do that...and although it's not easy, it's far better than the alternative

Can you go back to your treatment facility for any after-care? Or maybe longer-term in-patient support? Either of those routes may be a good first step to getting back to meetings if that's what you want?

Lawood

I wish but have too much responsibilities at my home I just moved to a new state so really don't know anyone and I am not going to tell the few people I meet hey I have a problem

Dee74

There's lots here about what you can't do...but do you have any ideas on what you could do to stay sober Lawood?

D

Lawood

I thought I did but it stopped working. So no I don't

Dee74

Well the two things I usually suggest support and changes.

Look at your support - if it's not enough to keep you sober, or if you're not using it when you need to, there's a problem to fix right there.

I think it's important to make changes to lifestyle too - think about the things in your life that make it easy for you to return to drink - do you get bored, depressed, angry, scared in sobriety?

Looking at your triggers, and beefing up your support, can help you work out a plan to stay sober.

D

doggonecarl

You hit on a few in the same post as your question. You don't think you have a problem with alcohol, you can't deal with the emotions brought up by AA and ran to your default mode, drinking, and you bail out of a viable recovery program without giving your full effort.

Getting sober requires action and effort, and less venting about your obstacles.