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Old 12-17-2013, 11:53 AM   #1 (permalink)
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Another scan and update on Mizzuno


In one week, I will be off from school for a vacation. I have been in school for 9 months strait. No breaks, no weeks off. I am thankful to have made it this far. I am not sure how much longer I can keep up with this pace, but I am determined to get through.

On Saturday, I had to make a decision to either do school work or clean house and get my hair cut. It had been so long since I went and had a hair cut that I thought taking care of myself (finally) was a priority. This hair cut/ cleaning house set me back a day in school, so I had to scramble making sure all my homework was done. The balancing act is not so balanced.

I have another MRI this Thursday. I am not looking forward to it, but this will get me closer to the answers. I am being referred to a surgeon for my back. Some days i feel like i can endure this pain, other days I am of the opinion that I would rather jump off a bridge (preferably a very short one) to end this madness. The pain meds help and then they don't. I battle with being on these pills and feeling good about myself. Sometimes I feel like I may not be upholding my end of the bargain with sobriety, given that I am on pain management. I know that my sobriety is not in question, and I am not using these meds for anything but to be able to function. At times the meds hit the pain perfectly and I am walking around like normal. The trouble has been now that it is really cold outside, my back is in increasing pain. I have to balance the meds and know that I will never be out of pain 100% However, getting off these drugs would be a blessing. Nerve pain is horrible, DDD is painful, and disc herniation on top of it has caused this happy girl to be seriously unhappy. How I wish to run again!!! To wear my running shoes and jog a good 5 miles. One day!

Anyways, it is almost the holidays and this is the time of year where people think that drinking in excess is acceptable. I will not be partaking of that madness. I plan to drink sparkling apple cider and to feel good. I have made it this far. I can make it farther.

Lily and Max (my cats) have taken to eating the ribbon off of all the presents. We have put the presents away. I hope I do not have to have a funeral for one of my fur children anytime soon.

Have a good day everyone! Keep on walking forward with resolve! We are doing this.
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Old 12-17-2013, 01:31 PM   #2 (permalink)
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I hope the MRI gets you closer to a solution Miz...and enjoy your break - you deserve it

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I hope the scan shows a way forward to a healthy Mizz ! Lots of hugs and best wishes !
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Best of luck with the MRI scan. Stay strong!
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Hope the docs get things sorted out for you, Mizz.
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Good luck Mizz hang in there!!
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THank you for the replies everyone! I think I am a step closer to finding the solution to an ongoing problem.
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Hi Mizz. Please add my good thoughts to the others. Hoping for a helpful outcome & look forward to hearing how it went.
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Good to hear from you - sounds like you have a really solid grasp on your situation and are managing this well. Glad you're still out there getting things done (school, etc) amisdst this physical struggle. All the best, happy holidays!
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I hope you get those answers soon, Miz. Inspiring to see you persevering through this.
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Well this sucks...
What sucks?
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Old 12-17-2013, 09:52 PM   #15 (permalink)
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I would like to say that when I posted this, I was not coming from a place of feeling bad for myself, or wanting anyone to feel bad for me. I was only updating what has been going on with me. .....Looking forward to the break, my back (same old song) and that the holiday is coming. SO, I hope I did not convey that I was having myself a little party of pity. Not what I intended.

(when reading the post again, I think the jumping off the short bridge may have been the sinker. Although, a short short bridge that is only like 5 ft tall (what I imagined) would not cause more than a sprained ankle)
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