Watching movies
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Watching movies
Well I am on day 33 and feeling like my mind is clearing up a little bit. Tonight I stayed up and watched some movies from my childhood. It saddens me a little to think that I would grow up to be an alcoholic, but I am glad to be here with my sobriety chip and friends in AA who care about helping me get sober. SR is a great community and I wish I would have stayed sober back when I tried on my own so many times, but now I have the support and strength I need to change my life. It feels like I have overcome something so big that I just want to take it easy and be nice to myself with driving myself crazy with anxiety, fear, and worry. My nervous paranoia has all but disappeared and I cannot believe how much alcohol changed my personality, perception, and reactions. I'm not sure why watching these old movies makes me scared to get old and be alone, but I know as I get better I have a far greater chance to have a healthy relationship and maybe my own family one day, since now I have only my dad and he drinks too much for me to be around him.
I just keep telling myself to be proud of my decision to be stronger than my desire to drink and self-destruct.
I just keep telling myself to be proud of my decision to be stronger than my desire to drink and self-destruct.
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You're doing great Acheleus. It's a roller coaster ride of emotions in the beginning months, but that tends to settle down with time. Work on those steps. They can help enormously with the fears.
Who knows, with time you might even set a good example for your dad. Say and do things that might influence his decisions.
Be well.
Who knows, with time you might even set a good example for your dad. Say and do things that might influence his decisions.
Be well.
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I'm looking forward to xmas, to be able to watch so many old movies!! I always think being reminded of childhood helps us to remember how far we've come in life, the good and the bad, but we're still here pushing through each day 
Great job on 33 Days!!
Great job on 33 Days!!
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