Josafe

Hi

I bought some vodka today.......but I didn't drink it but just looked at it. The silly thing is I don't know why.

Had a smell of it but put the cap back on.

Maybe my old ways or muscle memory.

KateL

Could be muscle memory, or perhaps you want it sitting there like a security blanket. We do odd things sometimes. Can't you chuck it or give it away?

Gibbons2

But, if you're anything like me, YOU WILL drink it at some point.

Throw it out, take it back, get rid of it.

Soon.

Anna

Yes, do get rid of it.

It's so much easier if you don't have alcohol in the house.

jt1234

Absolutely pour that **** down the drain

Dee74

another vote for pouring it down the drain - why make things harder?

D

BalinChane

Definitely, pour it down the toilet where it belongs.

Stang

I would ignore my common sense and just blank out all thought then go to the store and buy beer. Kind of an autopilot kinda thing. Pour it out.

MIRecovery

Give your best friend/worse enemy a funeral before alcohol convinces you a little drink wont hurt

Carlotta

Pour it down. Today could be the beginning of a good new life: it's really up to you.
Why don't you get rid of that poison and join us at the 24 hours club where we commit not to drink or drug for the next 24 hours? Before you know it, those days do pile up, the obsession lift and life gets better or if it doesn't get better, at least we get better at life.
Come on Josafe, WE can do it http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ml#post4340911

Thepatman

Same here. I'm on 3 days and have empties still to bring back (my truck could not fit them all, LOL) just the left over smell empty cans is not helping me. My First priority is bring all empties back.

Thepatman

And forgot, wash my bed every 2 days. For the first week. I think my night sweat smells like booze!

Josafe

Hey

Thank you all so much. I have managed to not to drink it which is a great start. It must be old habits and routines of picking up some alcohol whilst shopping. I must try and avoid that part of the supermarket.

I will pluck up the courage and just pour it down the drain or in the toilet. If I am unable to do this then I have a major problems. I have passed the first test. I didn't drink it and have put the bottle out of sight. Also, the bottle is 35cl and not 70cl. Small steps I guess.

Isnt it silly how alcohol can make you feel powerless. Silly really or may be its the shame, guilt and out of control feelings that it brings back. Maybe the inability that a small glass wont be enough and that I must drink the whole bottle.

I may try the 24 hours club. I think I need the 24 hour club to empower me.

Dee74

The more you deliberate over it the harder it gets Josafe.
My advice:

Go get it now and dump it, without thinking.

D

Josafe

Please...

I will pour it down the toilet on Saturday at the latest. If I start to feel weak I will ask for help. Please have faith in me that I will do it.

I need to face my demon and that it cannot have a hold of me any more.

1stthingsfirst

Good for you for coming here to talk about it! I agree with everything said already. Flush it in the toilet now!!

Gibbons2

Then face it and pour it out. Why are you waiting until Saturday?

Stop lying to yourself Josafe. You want to drink it at some point or why are you keeping it?

I am trying to be your friend here. Quit listening to the demon in your head. He is lying to you.

PurpleKnight

To me Saturday is a long time away, that's a long craving to ride if that bottle is in the house! . . . putting your Sobriety at risk by keeping it around is a very high risk strategy!!

1stthingsfirst

Gibbons is right. I will follow this thread and your progress; hope you have the courage to dump it out now. This is scary stuff; vodka is not to be messed with. Hope you are okay. You can do it; your "beast" is lying to you.

ChrissieB

Why wait, I feel your desire to stop, having it in the house is just tormenting you...rooting for ya!!