Hospitalization last night
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I got taken by a coworker to the ER last year once too. Coudln't even get up from my desk because I thought I was having a heart attack from my stupid decision to try and detox on my own. That actually wasn't my final wakeup call either, but it was close.
Bottom line, we can never be "normal" when it comes to drinking, but we can be sober - that includes you. And the good news is that you have 100% control over that decision if you decide to make it. I hope you can find the strength to decide that you want sobriety more than you want to drink, because it's well worth it.
Bottom line, we can never be "normal" when it comes to drinking, but we can be sober - that includes you. And the good news is that you have 100% control over that decision if you decide to make it. I hope you can find the strength to decide that you want sobriety more than you want to drink, because it's well worth it.
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Originally Posted by Erik1980 
The idea of drinking right now is so repulsive ... But in a few days or a week I know it will be appealing ... Such a psychological thing... I know I must stop though .. Waking up in the hospital was scary
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My last attempt at drinking "normally" ended with a hospital visit as well; I still have some lingering head-injury related stuff I have to deal with. I consider myself lucky. You are too! My hospitalization and subsequent dealings with plastic surgery led to me becoming sober. I've been sober for over a year. You can do this. Totally sucks for the first few weeks but it does get easier....much easier. Consider this a wake up call. Stick around to this site...we are all here for you 
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Originally Posted by NoJimmy
I suppose most of us have an event that causes us to reach a point of having had enough. It was 46-days ago for me, and I will never forget it as long as I live. I also felt that if I could have just disappeared without hurting those I love even more, I may well have. It's up to you to decide what happens from here, and of course you can succeed as many others have. As they say, it's really very simple, but damn sure not easy. Focus on what you need to do, and try not to beat yourself up too bad. That was really hard for me during the first 3-4 weeks.
In one sense, you can be glad that it wasn't worse than a trip to the hospital. As a law-abiding citizen and one who has always respected police officers, I would have never in my life thought I would be arrested - but it happened.
I hope you are able to keep your job and somehow get through all of the embarrassment of approaching people who saw you at your worst, especially when you don't remember what you did or said. Have faith in yourself and value your worth as a person. You will be able to get through this, it just takes time (at least that's is what others have told me).
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Originally Posted by Erik1980
I was unresponsive and they called 911... So scary... So embarassing ... So awful ... I don't want this anymore for myself
Hang in there, it will get better
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Omg I thought I was reading my story I just did the same after 10 mths of sobriety Xmas drank didn't see it coming at all resulting In hospital first time for me nearly died could have you know what it helped me be In a place of acceptance and it brings peace try and learn from this it will strengthen you a lot it truly does there are no mistakes it's our path you know what are those people really normal are they really having fun ? From this experience I went through it helped me and now I can see looking back the signs I do things different now our sobriety is number 1 I reach out a lot more now be gentle with yourself in time you will see that this will help you xxxxx
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Ummm...dude.....time to get a different job. Don't even tell me there are no other choices for employment. If you have worked at a bar you have customer service skills, time management skills, and tons of patience. There are PLENTY of alcohol-free establishments that would love to have you. You deserve better.
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Originally Posted by Erik1980
Well I work at a bar so it's not really a normal job ... I dunno ... 
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a) your boss is a good person and knows you need help and will let you take time off (not sure if you have benefits and insurance, maybe you could ask to talk to a social worker about your options)
b) he has a heart of stone or he is fed up with your antics and will let you go then you can always worry about getting a job when you leave treatment (plus it might be for the best, I knew some sober bartenders in AA but it has to be a very hard job for someone in early sobriety).
Take care of yourself, you are worth it.
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Yeah a new line if work might be in order .... I can't afford time off really... Unfortunately ... I am hating life right now... I sincerely hope I don't get fired .... Ugggh I feel so lost and alone ... It's even more frustrating that I quit for a month and was loving all the benefits of it, and then here I am again, right back where I started from ... Worse off though ... Never been hospitalized before ...
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Erik - I feel for you for going through that. 
I'm so glad you're ok.
This could be the further proof you need to get sober. Once it's in your system you don't know where it might lead. I was the same way - had to learn a hard lesson. Here's where life can change for the better - you are going to avoid so much pain by stopping now. We know you can do it. Please give yourself a break and look at this as a new beginning.
I'm so glad you're ok.This could be the further proof you need to get sober. Once it's in your system you don't know where it might lead. I was the same way - had to learn a hard lesson. Here's where life can change for the better - you are going to avoid so much pain by stopping now. We know you can do it. Please give yourself a break and look at this as a new beginning.
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Originally Posted by Erik1980
This is going to be a long hard road to travel ..
Nothing more to say that hasn't already been said. Just wanted you to know you have my support.
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