Picked up 30 day chip
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Join Date: Apr 2013
Location: Daytona Beach, FL
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You have ups/downs - especially at milestones 30-60-90 days. Just try it for 6 months. If you drank for years - giving yourself 6 months seems fair right? Then if your life is just not working and everything still feels crappy - reassess? It's normal to go through this. I got angry about 30-60 days - just running around pissed off at everyone and everything, then I got sad - mourned the loss of my drinking - then back to anger. FINALLY at over 90 days - I'm like "Hey this sober stuff isn't too bad". Went to a luncheon with coworkers yesterday - was nervous because it was a bar. I really was OK - because I knew I couldn't drink. A couple other people wanted to order, I said I wasn't drinking, then they retracted and said "Nah I'm not drinking either." No one asked WHY, and no one made a big deal out of it. After I got my coffee and lunch, I never even paid much attention to the bottles of wine/beer everywhere. No more than I would noticed a bench or stool in the room. IT's only a big deal if I make it one.
A Day at a Time
Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: Grand Rapids MI
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Originally Posted by Acheleus 
Man. I have no idea how i got myself in this mess...I realized today I have done things I hated, to "please" other people, or because I was too frightened to do what I wanted, and my reward for this was to drink as much as possible once I was through with a painful experience. Going to school, being miserable, feeling like a failure because I hated what I was doing--I notice now how I binged after long periods of work. Now I don't know who I am or what I want to do, I feel like I am vanishing. No one asks me how I am doing in my life, maybe because I put on a front of being "together" or "well groomed and dressed well" so people assume I know what I am doing.
I do not know what I am doing.
I do not know what I am doing.
the promises will come true sometimes quickly sometimes slowly but they will always be to realize if you work for them
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Join Date: Apr 2013
Location: Ohio
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Originally Posted by Acheleus
I feel like I am vanishing. No one asks me how I am doing in my life, maybe because I put on a front of being "together" or "well groomed and dressed well" so people assume I know what I am doing.
I do not know what I am doing.
I do not know what I am doing.
I can and you can. Today I don't have to feel as much in control as I used to. I can get upset, I can cry and I can get angry. These are normal feelings but it is what I do with them today that makes the difference. How I react to life is what changes, not life.
I change the world around me by changing myself.
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