Day One. Here we go.
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Day One. Here we go. This is the first time I have searched for help. I've gotten myself to a point of deep depression and I realize it is all due to the way I have allowed myself to life my life these last few years. I am 23 years old and I have been drinking everyday for about 4 years. In these years I have piled up more mistakes and disappointment in myself than I could have ever imagined. When I look back on everything I am so incredibly lucky because I really let myself be awful. But I just cant do that anymore. I want to meet the better side of myself. I know that I am not a bad person but that I let circumstances overwhelm me so much I became a prisoner to my sadness and low self esteem.
It didn't help that all my friends were more than willing to oblige to the same life style I was chasing. Anyway, I've moved away from all of them and I am seeking counseling and help from this addiction. I know that I am better than this.
Anyway, I'm sorry if this was a complete bummer to read but I hope I can find support, good vibes and good people here.
It didn't help that all my friends were more than willing to oblige to the same life style I was chasing. Anyway, I've moved away from all of them and I am seeking counseling and help from this addiction. I know that I am better than this.
Anyway, I'm sorry if this was a complete bummer to read but I hope I can find support, good vibes and good people here.
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Not a complete bummer - very optimistic in fact. 
Welcome OfTheEarth.
I wish at 23 I'd reached out for help - or even admitted I had a problem. I went on for decades trying to manage my drinking. In the end I lost everything I cared about & almost my life. Because of your actions now - this will never happen to you. I'm glad you're seeking counseling - you will never regret taking this important step. Glad to have you with us!
Welcome OfTheEarth.I wish at 23 I'd reached out for help - or even admitted I had a problem. I went on for decades trying to manage my drinking. In the end I lost everything I cared about & almost my life. Because of your actions now - this will never happen to you. I'm glad you're seeking counseling - you will never regret taking this important step. Glad to have you with us!
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This is a very very big step for me and I am very nervous. I have always known that my behavior was being destructive, but I allowed myself to continue on. I thank you so much for your kind words of support and positivity.
I'm sorry you had to lose a lot but I am so happy to know you are YOU. I hope I can get there as well. It's a pleasure to be here. Thank you so much.
I'm sorry you had to lose a lot but I am so happy to know you are YOU. I hope I can get there as well. It's a pleasure to be here. Thank you so much.
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Recognition which took me some time, self forgiveness among other things and taking each day as it comes recognizing my triggers and realizing how sick I could become nearly letting the addiction feed itself and my allowing it was the reality check I needed. It is good you have support to help.
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Yeah, not a bummer at all OfTheEarth. We've all been there, in many various forms. Man, at 23, you have taken a big step. We're all in this together and this is a great place for support. Take it one day at a time, it sounds cliche, but it works. Good to have you hear, and welcome.
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Thank you. 
I'd give anything to go back and take the action you're taking. I hope being here will help ease your anxiety. As malcolm said - we're all in this together, and we will make it.
I'd give anything to go back and take the action you're taking. I hope being here will help ease your anxiety. As malcolm said - we're all in this together, and we will make it.
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Originally Posted by malcolmsloan 
Yeah, not a bummer at all OfTheEarth. We've all been there, in many various forms. Man, at 23, you have taken a big step. We're all in this together and this is a great place for support. Take it one day at a time, it sounds cliche, but it works. Good to have you hear, and welcome.
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Hi and welcome OfTheEarth
Not a bummer at all - most of us have been there, too.
There's tons of us here - and a lot of support.
SR helped me change my life - I hope we can help you do the same
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Not a bummer at all - most of us have been there, too.
There's tons of us here - and a lot of support.
SR helped me change my life - I hope we can help you do the same
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You will find much support here. You are not alone. We do recover. 
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hi Earth! welcome, and kudos for doing this hard work now rather than later (or before its too late). please get all the help you need to get your life pointed in a good, solid, positive direction. this site is phenomenal. please stick around
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I'm pretty new here, turned 24 last week and i can relate a lot to you. I'm nowhere near where i want to be, but coming on here is a massive step and i'll be looking for your posts ofTheEarth..got a feeling your going to be good at this sober stuff ;-)
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Originally Posted by Django
I'm pretty new here, turned 24 last week and i can relate a lot to you. I'm nowhere near where i want to be, but coming on here is a massive step and i'll be looking for your posts ofTheEarth..got a feeling your going to be good at this sober stuff ;-)
Thank you for all of you who have made my day one such a supportive one! Here's to day two. <3 <3 <3
Have a wonderful wonderful day everyone!
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Welcome OTE, and I second the notion that you will be great at sobriety.
As others have said, I wish I had been wise enough to quit at 23.
How are you planning to manage quitting?
You mentioned you have moved, which is a great start with a fresh slate.
What kind of things will you do to deal with filling former drinking time?
As others have said, I wish I had been wise enough to quit at 23.
How are you planning to manage quitting?
You mentioned you have moved, which is a great start with a fresh slate.
What kind of things will you do to deal with filling former drinking time?
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