DoPerdition

But my desire to be sober is stronger. I have thought about drinking almost non-stop at times. I have never gotten close to taking a drink yet though. I get the feeling that my AV is going to get louder before it gets quieter though.

I am really afraid of relapsing. I hope that keeps me motivated to stay sober.

I hope everyone is having a good night.

Suekie

I'm in the same boat. These are things that are running through my brain:

"You never succeed when you try to better yourself whether losing weight, exercising more, or not drinking or taking pills. You're gung ho for a period of time and then eventually go back to who you REALLY are. Why is this time going to be different"

"You're not really an alcoholic, look you haven't drank in 16 days, you can drink in moderation if you're very strict with yourself about it"

"You really think you're going to do this for the rest of your life?? You do know who YOU ARE, right"

"You were nothing like those women in AA.. obvious you are not an alcoholic"

"You're happier when your drinking.. don't you want to feel happy again."

"How are you supposed to destress? You work hard all day, you deserve a drink or two"

There are many more where those come from... Trying to shut the beast up...

I hope you're having a good night, too. This early recovery thing is NO JOKE.

Dee74

There are some really useful tips here:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

sugarbear1

I drank for a long time, every morning vowing not to drink again....when that voice got loud, I told it that maybe I'd entertain it tomorrow, but I would try to stay stopped just today.......

every tomorrow became another today.....

Dee74

I think most people are afraid of that. We have this inherent idea that our addiction is so much stronger than we are.

It's simply not true - it just that we didn't have the right tools, or support for fighting back

If you don't want to relapse, and you're prepared to do whatever is necessary to stay in recovery - you won't relapse

Keep reaching out guys

D

Dee74

double post.

Lifeisforliving

This is exactly how I'm getting thru the days this week. "Just get thru today & you can drink tomorrow." It sucks but it works.

mecanix

Keep on

This body , this organism can always take far more pain and anguish than it's brain believes possible . lots of people deal with all kinds of stuff around the world and stay sober. i am nothing special, if they can forbear so can i .

stick with it ,

Bestwishes, m