zach4677

im not sure what to do, I have never needed a drink this bad before, I really quit at the worst time....

I work out of state during the week and go back home to Texas every Friday, so I have nobody down here for support at all and to make it worse, our boss decided he was going to cover our rent but at the price of having 2 extra workers stay with us in our tiny apartment. So in a matter of days I went from having a quiet place with 1 roommate to now living in a household that almost nobody speaks English and having to share a room with someone who I cant even communicate with, im not sure what to do, I havnt gone 4 days without a beer in months and I know I cant just go back since ive gotten this far but I havnt felt this stressed in a very long time.

KateL

Will they be in the apartment indefinitely? Can't you tell your boss you are finding it really difficult, can't sleep or whatever?

zach4677

pretty much until our contract job is up in August, our boss made this decision today when my roommate refused to pay his share of the rent

Dee74

I'm sorry for the stress Zach - there's always support here though.

If you're open to the idea you could always check out a face to face, meeting based recovery group like AA SMART or LifeRing too?

Some days are rough. There's nothing for it but to gather as much support as you can and push on through. Drinking won't help change your living situation.

Things like this will get easier to handle the longer you stay sober
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Mountainmanbob

long sober walks ??

find some meetings ??

find some sober ones to hang with ??

there are many outs -- if -- we are willing

MM

KateL

Well it's unfair that you have been made to feel uncomfortable because of someone else. I would talk to your boss. Do you think he would compromise? Do you think you could deal with it until August. I know it's a long time but you never know you might get to like these guys and teach them a bit of the lingo. If you have a drink it will just make things worse. I know it's really, really hard, but keep calm and please try not to drink.

zach4677

thanks ive made it 4 days I know I cant quit now

KateL

Yeah, it's only been 4 days so you probably are still on a slight downer. Things could look really different in a day or two.

ScottFromWI

There will always be excuses to drink. And the idea that you "need" a drink or that it will somehow make anything better (it wont) is your addiction talking. Of course it wants you to think that the solution to stress is drinking!

As some have mentioned, take a walk...get away for a bit. Think through what will happen if you do drink. Stay on here with us...we're happy to talk.

KateL

I really didn't want to drink but often did under extreme stress because I was used to it being a temporary respite. It was a habit that I found hard to control. It is tough but you can do it. I never saw it as making an excuse to drink, I really found it difficult like a compulsion. But you can beat it.

zach4677

I used everything negative in my life as an excuse to drink, being a college grad and not finding anything better than minimum wage, failing relationships, hard day at work and pretty much any day that ends in "y" was a good excuse to drink, even good things, when I got this job I have now I binged for 2 weeks just celebrating I finally got a good job

KateL

Oh dear. Well it won't really change anything, but you know that, so do try.

Reboswon

[QUOTE=zach4677;4328864]im not sure what to do, I have never needed a drink this bad before, I really quit at the worst time........

Hi, just asking, is there any better time to quit?

Hang in there!

Anna

Zach, is it possible for your family to relocate where you are working so you could afford to live away from the other workers?

I'm glad you plan to get through this.

zach4677

nope at all, I am 22, unmarried and the only family I have is my mother, she finally paid off her home so I doubt it, I have 9 months left so im just gonna have to stick it out