Relapsed
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Relapsed
Relapsed last week and throughout the weekend. I feel terrible and guilt-ridden. I just needed to get this off my chest. I guess I have to try to pick myself up and start over again.
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Join Date: Jul 2013
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If you are like me, coming to SR was not the first time I thought of quitting, or the first time I tried.
I think a big thing that helped me this time was to drop the 'again' and the baggage and ammo it gave my AV(before I even knew the term). Looking back I would lose the resolve in the past because I (it) would use the past failures as reasons why I could not strong and stay resolved in the now.
I set my mind to be quit in July of this year, regardless of last July , the only July worth thinking about is next July.
You got this, it starts now
wish you well
I think a big thing that helped me this time was to drop the 'again' and the baggage and ammo it gave my AV(before I even knew the term). Looking back I would lose the resolve in the past because I (it) would use the past failures as reasons why I could not strong and stay resolved in the now.
I set my mind to be quit in July of this year, regardless of last July , the only July worth thinking about is next July.
You got this, it starts now
wish you well
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Join Date: Sep 2010
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Well, they say the relapse starts before the first drink is taken. Before Thanksgiving you were talking about saying "F**# it" and drink. And so you did. With the same results.
I can see why you are tired of the cycle. You can halt it when you are ready.
I can see why you are tired of the cycle. You can halt it when you are ready.
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Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: Wisconsin
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Im sorry for your lapse, but consider that it was just that. A lapse. In judgement and sense, and perhaps not accepting that you cannot drink like a normal person.
doggonecarl said it well, these things start well before they actually start.
I learned every time I went back out. What I did right, and what I did wrong, and what kind of thinking would get me into trouble.
Its commendable that you came back here and admitted what happened. That is brave, and took a lot of strength.
Glad that you made it back in one piece. Too many of us don't.
doggonecarl said it well, these things start well before they actually start.
I learned every time I went back out. What I did right, and what I did wrong, and what kind of thinking would get me into trouble.
Its commendable that you came back here and admitted what happened. That is brave, and took a lot of strength.
Glad that you made it back in one piece. Too many of us don't.
Hears The Voice
Join Date: Jan 2013
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Been there, done that.
Try to convert those negative feelings into positive energy.
I will pick myself up and start over again.
Try to convert those negative feelings into positive energy.
Originally Posted by Mirage74 
I guess I have to try to pick myself up and start over again.
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Glad you are back. I'd agree with Carl - take a close look at some of your posts leading up to the weekend, there's definitely a pattern. Figuring out how to see those things ahead of time might be of value to you. Man of us have drank after sober periods - what's more important is how we react and learn from those mistakes.
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Originally Posted by Mirage74
Thanks all for understanding and giving me a much needed lift. I still feel bad but your posts help a lot! I probably should try an AA meeting later. Hope you are all doing well
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