i'm confused!
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i'm confused!
Hello everyone Happy Thanksgiving! I haven't been here in a while, I've been in therapy for 4 months. See a therapist every 2 weeks and doctor once a month. I was sober of alcohol for 2 months then drank for 2 days then back again. Im not sure my doctor says I may be bipolar or schizoaffective I get a lot of meds. im on Seroquel from the clinic 200 mg. I pay for gabapentin, celexa and Ativan.
she recently put me on Ritalin. I,m not good with telling people my problems.so I get nervous , I told her that Ritalin makes me more productive,but forget to tell her it makes me manic. Anyway it was my motive to drink a lot today and use Ritalin to make me be able to complete a whole thanksgiving dinner, clean the kitchen spotless and now be on the computer. Holidays are hard for me I know that i'll use the Ativan to get over my hangover tomorrow. I know I won't continue to drink. The clinic is trying to get me on Medicaid. I need direction not just someone to write me scrips for meds. they don't address my mental issues just more meds that I can abuse, which I am starting to do.
she recently put me on Ritalin. I,m not good with telling people my problems.so I get nervous , I told her that Ritalin makes me more productive,but forget to tell her it makes me manic. Anyway it was my motive to drink a lot today and use Ritalin to make me be able to complete a whole thanksgiving dinner, clean the kitchen spotless and now be on the computer. Holidays are hard for me I know that i'll use the Ativan to get over my hangover tomorrow. I know I won't continue to drink. The clinic is trying to get me on Medicaid. I need direction not just someone to write me scrips for meds. they don't address my mental issues just more meds that I can abuse, which I am starting to do.
Welcome back tinah
Last time if I remember you were trying not to drink at all?
Sounds like quite a bind you're in - whenever I was relying on drugs and booze to get me through anything, a crash was never far away. It's pretty inevitable.
do you think it would be better for you in the long run if your were totally honest with your Drs about whats going on? They may not be so script happy then?
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Last time if I remember you were trying not to drink at all?
Sounds like quite a bind you're in - whenever I was relying on drugs and booze to get me through anything, a crash was never far away. It's pretty inevitable.
do you think it would be better for you in the long run if your were totally honest with your Drs about whats going on? They may not be so script happy then?
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I am very honest with them. I have social anxiety. I just get nervous with people in authority. I have started making a journal of my feelings at the time . The pdoc never even asks me about sobriety she just rushes me through and writes me scrips. I told her that the Ritalin was making me more productive, because I was having a hard time getting out of bed in the morning. she upped the Ritalin to 3 a day and wrote me a scrip for 180 pills she's going to be out for 2 months. I just needed a break and drank today and knew that these pills would help me get everything done . I know I shouldn't be drinking but I'm still not over the " oh I can drink a couple" doesn't work. I used to snort cocaine to make me be able to drink more this is almost the same thing. anything for more booze how sad any advice is helpful
I read this a little differently perhaps.
If it's a memory thing or you being flustered, it's good you're writing things down for next time
I think, if you have a lot of issues it's important to address all of them.
If you don't think your alcoholism is being addressed right now maybe a recovery group like AA or something similar might help?
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she recently put me on Ritalin. I,m not good with telling people my problems.so I get nervous , I told her that Ritalin makes me more productive,but forget to tell her it makes me manic.
I think, if you have a lot of issues it's important to address all of them.
If you don't think your alcoholism is being addressed right now maybe a recovery group like AA or something similar might help?
D
Hi Tinah, glad you're here. I think the best wAy to address all of the mental stuff and be on the right meds is to stop alcohol altogether. My son is bipolar and it was he'll getting his meds right, I couldn't imagine adding alcohol into that mix. And if you feel your doc is rushing you, speak up, it's your health. I'm jealous of your journaling, I'm terrible at keeping that up consistently.
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My therapist and I talked about group and AA. I have a hard time being around other people. Ativan gets me out of the house. I have severs paranoia and agoraphobia. My therapist asked about my sobriety, but as long as I pass the drug test every month, I'm fine. They seem to focus on the mental illness, which I am happy about, because I have always self medicated with alcohol and never knew why. So all this medicine is new to me. I just cant figure out why they would prescribe an alcoholic 180 Ritalin and 60 Ativan at a time.
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I have been doing really good with my sobriety until today. I just needed a break. I feel like Elvis sometimes. They have me up then down then sleep then up again. I'm a mess, the problem is I don't even know my diagnosis. I just take medicine. I am agoraphobic so when I get around people especially of authority (PTSD) I freeze up. This is my first break of sobriety in 2 months. The thing I do know is this is a one night thing I will not go on another binge.
There are a lot of free or low cost clinics around - if there's one in your local area you might get some medical advice there?
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I think you need to find a different doctor at a low cost or free clinic if you can. The cocktail of various drugs you are taking in conjunction with drinking could be pretty dangerous. I also think you are headed the wrong way by drinking to "take a break" from sobriety. Sobriety is the break...alcohol is the problem.
Best of luck, if nothing else hopefully you can get another medical opinion.
Best of luck, if nothing else hopefully you can get another medical opinion.
your life could be in jeopardy
Im not sure my doctor says I may be bipolar or schizoaffective I get a lot of meds
im on Seroquel from the clinic 200 mg
I pay for gabapentin, celexa and Ativan
she recently put me on Ritalin
Ritalin makes me more productive,but forget to tell her it makes me manic
Anyway it was my motive to drink a lot today and use Ritalin
I need direction not just someone to write me scrips for meds
that would write me a prescription for most anything and everything
if
I would keep coming back to see them for yet another office visit
as I look back today I see where
I was using them
and
they were using me
please seek out some sound moral medical advice
and be very careful
sounds like with the combination of drugs and booze you have going
your life could be in jeopardy
Mountainman
Quitting drinking doesn't cost anything. Support is free here and locally too. I always thought drinking was my crutch too, until I realized it was actually the cause of most of my problems, not the solution.
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