Day 1 once again
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Join Date: Nov 2013
Location: Oregon
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Day 1 once again
New to the forum, hello! Trying to get through a day 1 again. This is my 3rd day 1 this fall. Made it 6 days the first time, 4 days last week, and I'm hoping the 3rd time is the charm. Getting a little antsy because the work day is almost over and my instinct is to stop at the liquor store on the way home. Not going to do it. I wasted my entire weekend. I can't keep doing that to myself. I'm nervous but excited about really taking control of my life.
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Join Date: Nov 2013
Location: My Toes In The Sand in Central PA
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welcome, I am also new to the. page. I have got some greatfeed back on a few things that I have posted. I also have read lot if good things on here alao that have days hlelped me last couple of days with things I am struggling with. so welcome
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Join Date: Nov 2013
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Thank you for the greeting and for asking! No program yet, right now I am just getting to a point where I can recognize that it's okay if I can't do this on my own. I just got an android phone recently and have loaded it up with sobriety and inspirational apps. A small step but it's really helped me see that there are so many people like me and that help and support are out there. I had this belief that my addiction was "special." Wrong! Next step is finding an AA meeting. I'm not quite ready to start healing around actual people, so I think this forum can be a great starting point for me.
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Join Date: Nov 2013
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Wow, I really appreciate all this kindness! It means the world to me. Thank you all so so much. Please bear with me as I get used to the forum. I haven't spent time in an online community since college, and I'm 35 now! I'll get the hang if it. :-)
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Hi brightgreen! We're so glad to have you with us. This place worked miracles for me - the support & encouragement was just what I needed. I drank all my life but finally found the strength to let go of it for good. You can do this! 
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Today is hard. I keep coming back here and rereading encouragement. I am shaky and I feel cold inside. Fortunately our office is chilly and I'm wearing a winter scarf at my desk so no one thinks I'm nuts. But it's an inside cold. I can't wait to be in bed knowing I made it through the day because I do not want to keep feeling like this! I didn't quite make it last night, to be honest. For some reason i thought i should reward myself with vodka just for doing the dishes and some laundry. I have to stop thinking that way! But I'm back in the saddle, another try, another day.
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Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: oxford
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Hello there brightgreen! I have just read your posts..well done! You are doing really well.. I found it so hard the first couple of days coming off the drink after yet another bender.. I know what you mean about an inside sort of cold...I had the shakes,especially my legs, it felt like I had shakes inside the shakes! If that makes any sense!? The worry, guilt and anxiety were worse though! You hang on in there..you are doin just fine and I hope you are snuggled up in a cozy bed and keeping warm! Bye for now xxx
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