Well here i am with my tail between my legs. I was going so well in recovery. I climbed so high and it was a massive stumble and fall when i relapsed. I didn't get right/totally back into the drinking but touches of my old form started to show through and it is enough for me to know which direction i need to go in my life. In hindsight and looking back over my posts i was struggling in the last few months prior to relapse. Then I stopped posting here which turned away the very help i needed. I stopped talking. I stopped counting days. I stopped the 24 hour club. In essence i stopped recovering.
I have started a new sober date (18th November) but my recovery date will remain back in April as i have learnt so much since 8th April and i know the experiences (all of them) along the way will help me towards eventual peace and total recovery. Thanks to Deekers and Imperfectlyme for your friendship and help