Ashamed
 

I screwed up and drank
, wife has had it, kids look at me with disgust, where's my gun

relax my advice is always sleep on it, dont do anything irrational. im facing 12 felony counts right now and ive only been clean 15 days and to be honest i feel better than ever even knowing what im facing. just keep your head up

Take it easy, falling down is part of learning, getting back up is showing that youre willing to learn more, you made a mistake, that proves youre human be happy and lets go! Back to beast fighting

If you are seriously considering suicide please call a hotline number immediately...resources and numbers to call are on the following link

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Calm down, bro.
Sometimes it takes a couple times before we get it right.
It took me several times before the learning curve came full circle.
Just learn from it. You'll get it right!

i had a docor's appointment for 2 to get antabuse, i didn't go

i called my mom. she's driving 2 hours to help me

and i'm 45 years old.

I'm glad you're getting help cementhead.
I'm sorry you drank but look at this as a stumble, not an end

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Forgive yourself, learn from it, and move forward again. :hug: Don't punish yourself anymore.

Stop it. Stop this self loathing. Do you really deserve the way you are thinking and feeling about yourself right now? No - no one does. Your family is coming to help because they care and know you need help.

Please see a doctor or a counselor. Get some help.

I hate mirrors

I see everything I have done and said, and it hurts my heart

forgive yourself

Peace, out

you have a problem and you are hating yourself for it. Stop it! soo many people have the same problem. me, you, all of the thousands of posters on this site. we all have a problem, and there is no shame in having a problem. stop bullying yourself like this with your self loathing. get help. stop drinking.

Hey OP, don't beat yourself up. This disease is incredibly frustrating, bewildering and powerful. Tomorrow is another opportunity for recovery. Do you have a plan in place for recovery? Have you considered AA? We alkies can rarely do it by ourselves. It's great that you are here since this is a bastion of hope and support. Suicide is never the answer. There is a way out of this hell. You are not alone.

Hey OP. Do not beat yourself up. Relapse happens.

I think of AA as a 24 hour program. The only thing that matters is the next 24 hours. Do not think about the length of your previous sobriety. If you think that you may be craving, please call your sponsor, AA or your sober friends. Go to a meeting. Do not isolate. Be amongst other AA's. Remember, the next 24 hours are more important than the last 24 hours.

The advice on this thread is phenomenal. What a great bunch of people! You can make it all better, cementhead. Don't give up, hun xxx

Its a permanent solution for a temporary problem.

I am not qualified to counsel you so I wont.

What worked for me was looking back at my problems from in the future, different perspective. Time does heal.

Hang in there.