The term "relapse"
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Originally Posted by Imabuleva 
I have read up on Rational Recovery. I don't fully buy into it either.
Perhaps that's part of your issue with not admitting you can't drink again too - trying to control something you cannot. Alcohol controls me - so I have personally needed to suck up my pride and do things I wouldnt normally do in order to get better. And guess what, it actuallly works!
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Hats off to you for recognizing this and owning up to your own behavior. My AH always acts like it was not his choice to run to the gas station for a beer as soon as I walk out of the house, like some force of nature MAKES him do it. Nope, he does it because he WANTS to do it. It's a choice.
I hope you are serious about your decisions and that you continue on without making the choice to drink. Sounds like you are certainly in the right frame of mind to realize you can do this!
I hope you are serious about your decisions and that you continue on without making the choice to drink. Sounds like you are certainly in the right frame of mind to realize you can do this!
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Originally Posted by Imabuleva
Living sober sucks (kinda at times). But living drunk sucks more.
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Originally Posted by Imabuleva
One thing that helps me with this is the philosophy "I'd rather think than drink." Because what I hate about alcohol most is it robs me of my brain and turns me into more or less a zombie
Could not have said it better ..EVER X
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Originally Posted by Imabuleva
Then again, it's a lot like committing not not to eat rat poison for the rest of my life. So it may not be so scary after all.
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Originally Posted by Imabuleva
My own fear of commitment. Then again, it's a lot like committing not not to eat rat poison for the rest of my life. So it may not be so scary after all.
Fail number one.
My body can't deal with alcohol anymore...it's innate desire is to get drunk, smashed, written off, once I've had that one drink. It may not be straight away, maybe I can have one drink, but ultimately, my body has now programmed itself to drink like there's no tomorrow.
But there is a tomorrow. Worrying about it, bargaining with it, hoping to change it, control it, whatever....I can't do that.
All I can do is face life as the optimal version of me. And that optimal version of me is sober. It's really that simple.
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