tippy79

Thank you so much for sharing your story alphaomega! We seem to have very similar stories! As crappy as they are, it's nice to know someone has the same relationship with alcohol as I do. For so long when you're drinking, you feel like the only one with the problem, cause you end up comparing yourself with those people on shows like Intervention, and then think to yourself, I'm not that bad! Then continue on. Drinking for me was disguised as being glamorous, like it is on TV shows and movies (not Intervention)....I was just the mom having a couple drinks here and there, but when it got to the point of hiding bottles, and being embarrassed to take out the recycles (because of all the clinging), then that glamorous feeling went away and was replaced by the anxiety, depression, embarrassment, self-pity, ect....
I know this is going to be a rough road, but I know I have to take it, and this time I want to. I guess looking into the future is something I should try not to do, and worry more about doing this day by day!!! Although, I still catch myself thinking....maybe one day I can be that glam mom and just have a couple glasses with dinner, ugghhh!

Anna

I was an at-home secret drinker too, and my drinking started off being what I thought of as glamorous. That didn't last long, though the sneaking and hiding took on a life of their own.

We do understand how scary and hard this is, but I know that you can do it.

Avra

Welcome tippy. Like you i am not overly social and my drinking is at home. I also drink wine and after morning regrets, spend my day rhinking about wine at dinner time. I have a four year old at home, i usually dont really get going on the drinking until after she is asleep, but she is getting older and I wont be able to hide it forever. Plus, she deserves a healthy and together mom. Today is day one - again - for me, but I am going to pull up my socks and do this. So can you.

mecanix

For me being sophisticated and a drinker were just not possible together, although i bought into that idea for several years

In all honesty i can either be intelligent , witty and sophisticated (ish) or i'd be desperately trying to control my drinking and getting frustrated at why there was only 1 bottle of wine and why others were taking it so slowly ..

I certainly never looked witty or sophisticated after i'd had what i thought was enough alcohol , because usually i couldn't speak and my legs were all wobbly … just drinking one or two was always a torture because everything was then in the way or a distraction from my goal of getting fully loaded.

m