Kizzer49

Hello all, here I'am at 10pm i will be able to sign in for 21 days sense my last drinks.
Almost to 30 days again. Well some of you may remember I relapsed on day 30 last time and
I'am dieing to go out and have some "fun" for the past few nights. I can not seem to get drinking
Off my damn mind. My own mom had asked me if I wanted to go to willies last night...
The local bar. What the hell!? She knows I have beeb trying to quit and have been successful.
I guess I'am just looking for someone to express too.

Hevyn

Great job Kizzer on your 21 days. It's good to see you trying this again.

Kizzer49

Im trying my hardest.

padawanxox

Keep it up - I'll be facing something similar during Thanksgiving w/ family.

Try and separate yourself & remind yourself of how you felt when you last relapsed maybe?
Idk if that helps. I'm new to this too, but you got sober again for a reason right?

Best of luck to you!! Keep going!!

Kizzer49

I wanna be sober. Just for some reason right now my mind keeps telling me to just goout.

LadyinBC

We are the most vulnerable in early recover. I did whatever I could to not put myself in situations where there would be alcohol. Even if it meant not seeing family and friends.

Nothing or no one can be more important than my sobriety. My sobriety ALWAYS has to come first. That is what I tell myself over and over again and I told myself that alot in the beginning. Because if I dont' have my sobriety, I will basically have nothing.

Kizzer49

Thanks for the helpful replies. Unfortunately my mind got the better of me and i had a relapse the other night. Im beginning to think i may need more help then just sighning into the 24 hour club.

Thepatman

Just dust yourself off and get back up. Beating yourself over the head won't do any good. You can do this, we all beleive in you.

doggonecarl

If you relapsed, then yes, you need more than a online forum thread. If you want to get sober, do whatever it takes, including seeking out more support. Face-to-face support.

The problem with quitting on our "own" is that the same mind that is resolved not to drink is the same mind that decides that it is okay to go out and drink.

Support, accountability...do what it takes to stay sober.

least

I agree with Carl. Get yourself some face to face support to quit drinking once and for all. You can do this.

Kizzer49

Thats the one think i didnt want to do. I just wish i could do it on my own.

Dee74

I know - I wanted a recovery that didn't take too much effort and didn't require me to break cover.

That just wasn't possible.

what do you think you might do now Kizzer?

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Kizzer49

I have no idea. I was even thinking early, oh screw it and was gonna go out tonight. I smartend up a bit and decided to stay in. But right now im not sure. I'am going to completly stay sober from every thing from now on(herbal). I dont know if that may be some of the problem.