My Last Day Drinking
I was awfully mad at you when you wrote your first post here. In fact Dee deleted a post I wrote when I was mad and I'm glad he did. But, you were being brutally honest, which most of us here think is important in dealing with our 'stuff'. And to be brutally honest I've driven drunk as a lord too, many times. I was being a hypocrite.
I'm glad you are here, and glad you are sober.
I choose not to drink today.
FG
I'm glad you are here, and glad you are sober.
I choose not to drink today.
FG
I was awfully mad at you when you wrote your first post here. In fact Dee deleted a post I wrote when I was mad and I'm glad he did. But, you were being brutally honest, which most of us here think is important in dealing with our 'stuff'. And to be brutally honest I've driven drunk as a lord too, many times. I was being a hypocrite.
I'm glad you are here, and glad you are sober.
I choose not to drink today.
FG
I'm glad you are here, and glad you are sober.
I choose not to drink today.
FG
Some noticeable improvements after 1 week sober:
- My face isn't as pale
- Bags under my eyes are much less severe
- Digestive system working much better
- A couple teeth that I have toothaches in are hurting much less
- Gums don't bleed when I brush my teeth any more
- No more vomiting every morning
- No more unidentifiable pains in my torso. Presuming these were either my liver hurting or pains from my digestive system not working properly
- I feel thinner although I haven't lost any pounds. Presuming this is the bloat everyone talks about.
- My mind is crisper. I'm remembering small things better and having more intelligent responses when conversing with people.
- My face isn't as pale
- Bags under my eyes are much less severe
- Digestive system working much better
- A couple teeth that I have toothaches in are hurting much less
- Gums don't bleed when I brush my teeth any more
- No more vomiting every morning
- No more unidentifiable pains in my torso. Presuming these were either my liver hurting or pains from my digestive system not working properly
- I feel thinner although I haven't lost any pounds. Presuming this is the bloat everyone talks about.
- My mind is crisper. I'm remembering small things better and having more intelligent responses when conversing with people.
I'm coming up on 90 days without alcohol. Yesterday I was just awesome tons of energy - yada yada yada - today BAM - hit me like a ton of bricks, cravings, etc. I did some research on PAWS really helped me see how long my body will take to recover and the physiological healing going on.
thanks
I'm really glad to hear that and really glad you're on day 5! Days 3 and 4 were the worst for me and day 5 was when things started easing up a little.
Did something last night/this morning that I used to love doing but could never do with a hangover: go to bed early and wake up before the sun. Good morning day 10! I'll have to use my toes to count after today.
Bruno, I'm feeling good, thanks. I've been pretty consistently happy and in a good mood since the physical withdrawal started subsiding around day 5. In these 14 days, some of the days have been easy, particularly the most recent ones.
Today was not one of those days. Today was hard. I haven't come this close to drinking since the first few days of my recovery. I thought about it long and hard.
I could drink a 6 pack of Heinekins and probably catch a pretty nice buzz and not be hungover tomorrow because it's only 6. I wouldn't drink tomorrow because it's a work day, I'd just get back on my normal routine since I have some discipline now. Why not enjoy Thanksgiving?
Those were the thoughts going through my head. There weren't even any people drinking at my moms house and I had those thoughts. I've read some of the posts being posted in here today and I can't imagine the nightmare some people are going through right now who are trapped in a house with people who are drinking.
Anyways, I'm back at my apartment now, didn't drink, I survived. It seems like the first round of holidays are hell for recovered addicts.
Today was not one of those days. Today was hard. I haven't come this close to drinking since the first few days of my recovery. I thought about it long and hard.
I could drink a 6 pack of Heinekins and probably catch a pretty nice buzz and not be hungover tomorrow because it's only 6. I wouldn't drink tomorrow because it's a work day, I'd just get back on my normal routine since I have some discipline now. Why not enjoy Thanksgiving?
Those were the thoughts going through my head. There weren't even any people drinking at my moms house and I had those thoughts. I've read some of the posts being posted in here today and I can't imagine the nightmare some people are going through right now who are trapped in a house with people who are drinking.
Anyways, I'm back at my apartment now, didn't drink, I survived. It seems like the first round of holidays are hell for recovered addicts.
Well today is day 20.
Things could be going better. I've been pretty down in the dumps all week. Just kind of listless and depressed which is something I wasn't really expecting because I was so happy for the first couple weeks after I stopped drinking. I'm incredibly lonely and bored. I've gained 5 pounds since I stopped drinking because I've been eating so much and I feel gross and sluggish. I think this has a lot to do with my current demeanor because I'm a very self conscious and probably insecure person.
Towards the end of work today, I decided I was going to drink. I had planned that I was going to drink a 6 pack tonight. I didn't do it, but for those few hours, that was the first time since I had quit that I had made a decision that I was going to drink. The AV's reasoning and rationalization at its finest.
I was taking diphenhydramine to help myself sleep and calm myself down when I first stopped the booze and now I'm abusing diphenhydramine to sedate myself. That has to stop very soon before it becomes another substance addiction and an incredible problem. Smoking cigarettes and chewing tobacco, another thing I did from time to time when I got off the booze. I'm not smoking more than a couple cigarettes a day, but that also needs to stop before it becomes an addiction.
I am still very glad I stopped drinking but I used to think that when I stopped the booze that everything would be peaches and gravy. I'm finding that self improvement most definitely doesn't begin and end there. I have a lot of soul searching to do, other vices to stop, and more things need to change. Most of all, I need to get out of this funk.
Things could be going better. I've been pretty down in the dumps all week. Just kind of listless and depressed which is something I wasn't really expecting because I was so happy for the first couple weeks after I stopped drinking. I'm incredibly lonely and bored. I've gained 5 pounds since I stopped drinking because I've been eating so much and I feel gross and sluggish. I think this has a lot to do with my current demeanor because I'm a very self conscious and probably insecure person.
Towards the end of work today, I decided I was going to drink. I had planned that I was going to drink a 6 pack tonight. I didn't do it, but for those few hours, that was the first time since I had quit that I had made a decision that I was going to drink. The AV's reasoning and rationalization at its finest.
I was taking diphenhydramine to help myself sleep and calm myself down when I first stopped the booze and now I'm abusing diphenhydramine to sedate myself. That has to stop very soon before it becomes another substance addiction and an incredible problem. Smoking cigarettes and chewing tobacco, another thing I did from time to time when I got off the booze. I'm not smoking more than a couple cigarettes a day, but that also needs to stop before it becomes an addiction.
I am still very glad I stopped drinking but I used to think that when I stopped the booze that everything would be peaches and gravy. I'm finding that self improvement most definitely doesn't begin and end there. I have a lot of soul searching to do, other vices to stop, and more things need to change. Most of all, I need to get out of this funk.
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