Try18

Today is a very important day, for my family. I am so excited and emotional. Yet Animosity with the family is causing me anger and anxiety and worry on top of that. I am scared as my instant desire is not to feel. My initial craving was for valium to calm me, now alcohol. I dont want to do either today. I am only 4 days sober and i do not want to pick up today or any other under any circumstances. I do not know how my mind can be so selfish.

TZ23

You got this Try. I have only been sober 3 days so I'm right there with you. Anytime I had to face any bad feelings at all I would turn right to drinking to make sure I didn't have to face them. I am now enjoying facing all these new feelings head on. It's kind of exciting and scary. All I want to say to you is you are not alone and you can do this.

Try18

Thankyou it is an overwhelming time!!!

TZ23

Your welcome. If you feel like you need someone message me if things get tough.

JaylaaKent

The first weeks are hard - This i my third go around at coming back since June. Seems like I get past 30 (which is the hardest) I forget how crappy the first few weeks feel. You go through highs/lows. High euphoria of I'm sober the world is great everything is wonderful - then you go through these lows - where "Why am I doing this?" It's actually a biochemical issues - low serotonin levels from prolonged exposure to alcohol (or any substance).

Anna

Have faith and confidence that you can get through this day.

You will be even stronger the next time something comes along.

soberclover

Just tell yourself you can do this. Often times I have acted "as if" I knew what I was doing even though I didn't. Just believe that you can do this clean and sober!!

Try18

Thankyou. It's good to know Im not alone!

WritingHelps

You are definitely not alone here. Glad you posted instead of using.

firstymer

Focus on today, Try18. All you have to do is get through today. Tomorrow will be easier. Grit your teeth. Bear down, and get through today. You can DO this. And remember that we are right there with you.

Try18

Just home, cravings still strong despite wonderful family news. Alcoholism baffles me!

Try18

15 minutes until the off license shuts, i can do this.

Dee74

I reckon you've done it

Good going try
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Try18

Going for a bath no booze bought. I have won the battle for today xxx

Carlotta

boombox

Job well done Try!

YoungAndDone

Congrats! You've made it another 24 hours, and should be proud of yourself! Just keep going, it'll just make you stronger.

TZ23

Great job making through today! Reading how good you did today just helped me overcome a tough moment I was having. Thank you.

Try18

Thankyou so much for your support... I am in bed unable to sleep but sober, and my goodness am i grateful!The power of sharing, i couldn't bring myself to pick up the phone to anyone in AA but writing here i got strength.

TZ23 I am glad to hear you overcame a tough time too today. I would like to echo what you said above and should you need message me any time.

Sleep well friends. May tomorrow (today? Already Sunday in the UK) be another 24 hours in recovery for us all. xxx