Erratic

I can't have a drink tomorrow due to my first day at psychotherapy. I am hoping that things goes ok and will bring me to realise that drink is not the all, meaning the high or the low or changing in mood or hiding anything from myself.

I want to be able to talk and work on a number of things that i need to address which has brung me to use alcohol.

The weekend even how much i wanted to be sober, started of friday night and i drank. Done the same for the last few days.

I am not happy with myself and my husband isnt either. So with psychotherapy im hoping that this will be start of not drinking. Im sick of trying it alone, i hardly see alcohol services even though they think im doing well as im drinking only a certain amount and they are now getting appointment with the doctor to see what i can go on to help me.

So here goes with a new thing to help and work on me.

Thanks to everyone who has listened to me ramble and continue to fiight the demon drink.

huggles xx

Anna

I'm glad you're continuing to seek support and I hope the therapy appointment goes well for you.

Erratic

Thanks anna, i will allways keep looking for support and fight this. xxx

trudgingagain

Glad you are still fighting the good fight! Hope you get what you are looking for in therapy as well. Will be thinking about you....

HeadLump

I'm so glad you're still fighting, Erratic. And we're right there with you

Dee74

I'm glad too Erratic - it sounds like it might be a step forward

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Johnston

Best of luck to you!

MythOfSisyphus

I know it's tough but it sounds like you're making progress, Erratic. Hopefully the therapy will help get to the root of why you drink and help you to stop.

Erratic

Thanks everyone huggles to u all for your kind wishes.

I am sitting here drinking a coffee, i have still an hr to go before i go out. The therapy starts at 10-30 and finishes 2-30 so its long time and will be mentaly exhausting. This going to be on every tuesday which i think lasts for 3months or more.

I have work this evening aswell, so i think i will just get on with it and head for bed when i finish at 9pm.

So here goes on my first day xx

trudgingagain

You can do this Erratic!

Aiko

Glad you got some Help Erratic....

Doing it without guidance is harder...
you might consider reading literature like tHE BIG BOOK AA, AVRT book, Urge surfing,...
Or you can look for an AA meeting, A that might help you not feeling alone.

Any time you are having a hard time come here to talk!!!
You can do it!!!

Erratic

Thanks trudg x
aiko i have the big book and also reflection and other books.

The group therapy went good, my daughter met me afterwards even she is ill like me. However i bought drink and was so close to my work time. Been told that i will be exhausted and *** knows, but i went but i drank after. Iam still working on in bringing all my appointments or councilling together so i work on certain things.

I also shoul of posted this in mental health, due to some way i have a acohol prob is due to my mental illness but its down to me to say enough. I have other support as i see alcohol councilling but the one that sticks out is the social worker and i feel she doesnt understand that i am working on things but what she is asking is a hands up i cant do.

Me talking about psychotherapy is im not sure if people understand in this part and why i have problems due to certain things. sry u have all been supportive but it depends on how i fight this problem.

huggles to all xx

trudgingagain

I was prescribed anti-depressants when I quit drinking. I thought, maybe it is a chemical imbalance that caused my drinking, after all ?! But...the bottom line was that whatever the cause, I am an alcoholic. I stopped taking the anti-depressants and managed to stay sober. Glad you are getting help....but do you have a plan to quit drinking?

SnoozyQ

Erratic, i really hope you can beat this thing honey. We understand what you are saying and iknow you have been trying so hard to give it up.

With each try , you are getting a little stronger.

Didnt matter wether or not you posted it here or in the mental health Erratic cos they pertain to each other i guess . I'm really hoping you get something positive from your therapy . Let us know how you went

Tomorrow is another day lovely , so just keep leaning on us .
I'm so glad you are still working , the distraction is a good thing
Xxxxx hugs

Erratic

Thanks both xxx
Found out i have slivary gland infection which found out why i have been feeling sore and that.

On the drinking i am still trying, im so finding it hard to stop.

The doc this morning said do i smoke and would like some help? told her im trying to sort out the alcohol first. Reading up on the glands and why im in pain was interesting.

I just dont know how to get past this and im feeling down about everthing.

sry for the misspelling in last post, but i normaly have to try and write properly due to a few things.

huggles to all

whiskeyman

i found i was searching for anything to help me FIX me problem, had three alcohol counsellors, psychotherapist, pyschiatrist, supportive friends, all to try and figure out what wrong with me and why i felt i needed to drink.

The answer was so simple eventually.

STOP DEBATING AND FIGURING

Just give in to it. Stop it, stop trying to figure it out, it doesnt matter why.
It was killing me. And I would die trying to ever figure it out.

LET GO

Erratic

Thanks whiskey xx

trudgingagain

Gotta agree with whisky