Disappointed with myself
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Join Date: Oct 2013
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Disappointed with myself
I have been lurking for about a week and after reading so much here I realize I am an alcoholic. It is in my family...grandfather, uncles and brother. I did not drink until about 12 years ago when I was about 50. It started socially, we have a boat and it is a big part of our boating life, initially. Then, I realized, it helped with my insomnia so it became a evening ritual,"to help me relax". I only drink between 5-7pm but it has now become something I depend on to take the days stress off. The reason I know I am an alcoholic is because I can answer "yes" to most of the questions. My mother told me I drink too much, I feel I drink too much, I drink more then 7 drinks a weeks, etc.
So I am here to help me stop this insane merry-go-round. I stopped a week ago but here I am "finishing" the last 3oz of vodka in my bottle. I am disappointed in myself right now.
I feel my face burning and turning red. My back is itching....it is like an allergic reaction.
So I am here to help me stop this insane merry-go-round. I stopped a week ago but here I am "finishing" the last 3oz of vodka in my bottle. I am disappointed in myself right now.
I feel my face burning and turning red. My back is itching....it is like an allergic reaction.
Clarajune (lovely name, by the way) 
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Welcome to SR Clarajune! I'm glad you came here and I think you will find you made an excellent choice being part of this community. I have been struggling staying sober on weekends and I'm sober right now thanks to the great support of the wonderful people here 
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Welcome
The mistake I made time and again was relying on willpower to quit drinking. It was not until I reached out for help that I finally got sober. In my case it was a combination of professional help, self education, AA, AVRT, and a belief that I could never ever drink like other people. Will power is important but it's seldom is enough.
The mistake I made time and again was relying on willpower to quit drinking. It was not until I reached out for help that I finally got sober. In my case it was a combination of professional help, self education, AA, AVRT, and a belief that I could never ever drink like other people. Will power is important but it's seldom is enough.
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Welcome Clarajune,
I agree with MIRrecovery. For me willpower was not enough I needed support and a program, that's me. I hope you find something that works for you. This is a great place to search for options.
All the best
caiHong
I agree with MIRrecovery. For me willpower was not enough I needed support and a program, that's me. I hope you find something that works for you. This is a great place to search for options.
All the best
caiHong
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Originally Posted by Clarajune 
Thank you for the welcome and being nonjudgmental for relapsing.
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Happy to meet you Clarajune! You are among friends who truly understand what you're going through. Sharing your thoughts & feelings here will lessen your anxiety. You are not alone.
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