4 Months, again :)
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4 Months, again :)
Today marks the second time I've hit 4 months this year.
First time I was missing meetings and not working the steps i ended up getting 5 months but then slipped, I thought I could drink normal again and drank solid for 2 weeks ( real normal drinking ) not!
So I jumped bk on wagon, got myself a sponsor and started on the steps.
We are taking it slow and deep, step5 at min, its taking time but my sponsor wants me to get really deep with my resentments.
And I'm here for the long haul and I wanna do it right.
But I suppose step1 was key for me, I had to totally give in to the fact that I was an Alcoholic and I'd never be able to drink again,
But only for today
Today my life is good, I feel physically and spiritally well.
I still get drinking thoughts, but they get no more than 2 seconds in my head.
I am so thankful for SR, AA, my sponsor and my family & friends.
A little tip from me -
Stop fighting it, we'll never win against Alcohol.
Tell your higher power, I'm beat, please take this from me.
Lose the battle, to win the war.
Love to all
Sean
First time I was missing meetings and not working the steps i ended up getting 5 months but then slipped, I thought I could drink normal again and drank solid for 2 weeks ( real normal drinking ) not!
So I jumped bk on wagon, got myself a sponsor and started on the steps.
We are taking it slow and deep, step5 at min, its taking time but my sponsor wants me to get really deep with my resentments.
And I'm here for the long haul and I wanna do it right.
But I suppose step1 was key for me, I had to totally give in to the fact that I was an Alcoholic and I'd never be able to drink again,
But only for today
Today my life is good, I feel physically and spiritally well.
I still get drinking thoughts, but they get no more than 2 seconds in my head.
I am so thankful for SR, AA, my sponsor and my family & friends.
A little tip from me -
Stop fighting it, we'll never win against Alcohol.
Tell your higher power, I'm beat, please take this from me.
Lose the battle, to win the war.
Love to all
Sean
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: Engerland
Posts: 897
Great stuff Seanie
So relate to the act of surrender marking the beginning of the beginning!
For me it was only when my human resources failed me utterly that i was to begin to recover and feel like i am in recovery.
But i fought till i had no fight left....
Insanity eh?
G
So relate to the act of surrender marking the beginning of the beginning!
For me it was only when my human resources failed me utterly that i was to begin to recover and feel like i am in recovery.
But i fought till i had no fight left....
Insanity eh?
G
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Join Date: Oct 2013
Location: Long Island NY
Posts: 105
Congrats on 4 months
Nice! I am starting over today. I want to feel good, wake up not depressed, sad and guilty. I love reading some of the posts on here. I need to focus on what is good. 4 months means your focus is good. Keep it up!
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Thank u for your post!!
For me, the surrendering part felt the hardest, but also, I felt the Biggest Relief that I have felt in a very long time...I don't know if its my need to be in control, or the fear of letting go, or fear of the unknown....
...Admitting defeat and surrendering to God has always been the most gut-wrenching.
Beautiful, but gut-wrenching.
and congrats
For me, the surrendering part felt the hardest, but also, I felt the Biggest Relief that I have felt in a very long time...I don't know if its my need to be in control, or the fear of letting go, or fear of the unknown....
...Admitting defeat and surrendering to God has always been the most gut-wrenching.
Beautiful, but gut-wrenching.
and congrats
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