I'm back...day 1 (again)
Nov.23, 2012
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I'm back...day 1 (again)
Well...I am back. Today is day 1...again. Been on and off since this first posting here almost a year ago. To think I could have been sober nearly a full year. Was clean for over two months, then one little drink created the avalanche. Back to 3-4 strong drinks every night and feeling like hell in the morning, yet I do it again every night. I realize that drinking does nothing good for me, yet every night I somehow convince myself, I need it just one more night, or not to stop this week cause its a bad week at work. I know that all my stresses in life are made worse by this poison, yet I cannot find the power to stop. I want to stop. I will stop today and never change my mind. I know how good it feel to have a clear head after weeks of not drinking and that high is way better...I just need some help to get there again. Thanks for listening...
Do you have a plan for how you are going to get and remain sober? Are you ready to change your lifestyle to accommodate sobriety?
Once I got to the point that you're at, I asked a friend to take me to an AA meeting. I've gone to a meeting almost every day since I decided to get sober.
Welcome back!
Once I got to the point that you're at, I asked a friend to take me to an AA meeting. I've gone to a meeting almost every day since I decided to get sober.
Welcome back!
Welcome back Wosco. Sorry to hear of your battles. I see from you posts that you have checked out a few of the "self help" options, but have not been able to "find the power to stop"
I was like that, lack of power was my dilemna. Maybe if you did what I did, you might get what I got. The power to live happily in this world without the need to drink.
I was like that, lack of power was my dilemna. Maybe if you did what I did, you might get what I got. The power to live happily in this world without the need to drink.
I was like that, too. I 'quit' so many times I coudn't count them. Don't give up. It took me many attempts and it's been two years nine months since I've had a drink.
And I was a bad drunk. Drinking morning, noon and night. This went on for twenty years.
It's progressive if I had continued to drink I'd probably be in the grave by now.
Just don't stop trying. I have been where you are, and it is possible to quit. Many of us here are doing it.
Keep us posted, and best to you.
And I was a bad drunk. Drinking morning, noon and night. This went on for twenty years.
It's progressive if I had continued to drink I'd probably be in the grave by now.
Just don't stop trying. I have been where you are, and it is possible to quit. Many of us here are doing it.
Keep us posted, and best to you.
Nov.23, 2012
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The self help pieces have been good to read. Just finished the Jason Vale book but still cannot seem to find the power to stop although I agree with everything in the books. I want to stop but cannot seem to find the power in my head to do it. I know its bad, makes me feel like crap, yet I keep doing it for the thrill of the "buzz" and to relieve stress and relax. I need a plan. Any advice?
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Well...I am back. Today is day 1...again. Been on and off since this first posting here almost a year ago. To think I could have been sober nearly a full year. Was clean for over two months, then one little drink created the avalanche. Back to 3-4 strong drinks every night and feeling like hell in the morning, yet I do it again every night. I realize that drinking does nothing good for me, yet every night I somehow convince myself, I need it just one more night, or not to stop this week cause its a bad week at work. I know that all my stresses in life are made worse by this poison, yet I cannot find the power to stop. I want to stop. I will stop today and never change my mind. I know how good it feel to have a clear head after weeks of not drinking and that high is way better...I just need some help to get there again. Thanks for listening...
Nov.23, 2012
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Thank you for the posts and replies. It has been a rough week. I am reminded of not only the physical pain but also all the mental energy that gets wasted when drinking.
Today has to be Day 1 of my "big plan"...I will keep posting till I find my way.
Today has to be Day 1 of my "big plan"...I will keep posting till I find my way.
Nov.23, 2012
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It is day one again today...really not sure why I am so powerless this time. I have stopped in the past, why can I not just do it again? It is like my brain is in a war with itself. I have read books, want to stop. Just need to want it more I guess. What have others done when in this situation?
It is day one again today...really not sure why I am so powerless this time. I have stopped in the past, why can I not just do it again? It is like my brain is in a war with itself. I have read books, want to stop. Just need to want it more I guess. What have others done when in this situation?
what kinds of things are going through your mind before you drink again wocso?
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Welcome back!! I think, sometimes, IMO, instead of always saying "this is day one again", you can look at it as, I have been sober 42 days of the last 56, or whatever the time frame is...this, IMO, helps you realize that you have had a lot of sober days, your not a "failure"..look at your success!!!!! Start again with the confidence that you want it and you can do it...keep trying!!!
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Just going to add my voice to that of those who stated AA worked for them
I never had the power to stay stopped. I stopped more times then I could count, but it never lasted very long, sometimes as little as hours.
AA led me to the power to stay stopped. Next tuesday is 9 months.
Don't know until you try.
I never had the power to stay stopped. I stopped more times then I could count, but it never lasted very long, sometimes as little as hours.
AA led me to the power to stay stopped. Next tuesday is 9 months.
Don't know until you try.
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