Day 0. At my parents now.
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Day 0. At my parents now.
Hi,
Earlier today I posted just before my parents came to pick me up. They'd be there in 20 minutes.
So I logged off, checked the windows, locks, etc. Went over everything and then, hidden in a dark corner of a closet, was a can of beer. I must have put it there in a drunken haze a while back and forgot about it. I friggin drank it.
Well, now that I'm here with my parents, I see it as a glitch. A thing that happened that won't happen again once I'm clean.
I told my parents about it. They were cool about it. My dad tends to put things into perspective. "You did that now based on your problem. A year from now you'll have it under control and this can of beer won't matter anymore. It'll be behind you".
So I got home. I still have two places I call home. My place and my parents' place. It felt like a huge relief. From that point on, drinking had become impossible. I have no choice. There's no possibility to drink and that is a huge relief. No more struggle.
So we talked. And talked. And talked. We talked a lot.
And it was a good talk. My dad's very proactive and we've been looking into treatment option. I actually started an online thing already.
That was actually kind of funny. I told them about this free, anonymous online help that you could sign up for and how I was considering doing that some time. My dad looked at me with a look, well you know when someone you know gives you a look and you know what it means. Then he said "Now".
I'd put it off. My dad stopped that and made me do it. So that's a start.
So this is day 0 to me. Drank today, so my first day will be tomorrow. But there are a lot of good developments. And my dad isn't letting me off the hook.
Anyway, I'll post some updates from time to time.
J.
P.S. This has become my sobriety motivational song:
Eminem - Survival (Explicit) - YouTube
Earlier today I posted just before my parents came to pick me up. They'd be there in 20 minutes.
So I logged off, checked the windows, locks, etc. Went over everything and then, hidden in a dark corner of a closet, was a can of beer. I must have put it there in a drunken haze a while back and forgot about it. I friggin drank it.
Well, now that I'm here with my parents, I see it as a glitch. A thing that happened that won't happen again once I'm clean.
I told my parents about it. They were cool about it. My dad tends to put things into perspective. "You did that now based on your problem. A year from now you'll have it under control and this can of beer won't matter anymore. It'll be behind you".
So I got home. I still have two places I call home. My place and my parents' place. It felt like a huge relief. From that point on, drinking had become impossible. I have no choice. There's no possibility to drink and that is a huge relief. No more struggle.
So we talked. And talked. And talked. We talked a lot.
And it was a good talk. My dad's very proactive and we've been looking into treatment option. I actually started an online thing already.That was actually kind of funny. I told them about this free, anonymous online help that you could sign up for and how I was considering doing that some time. My dad looked at me with a look, well you know when someone you know gives you a look and you know what it means. Then he said "Now".
I'd put it off. My dad stopped that and made me do it. So that's a start.
So this is day 0 to me. Drank today, so my first day will be tomorrow. But there are a lot of good developments. And my dad isn't letting me off the hook.
Anyway, I'll post some updates from time to time.
J.
P.S. This has become my sobriety motivational song:
Eminem - Survival (Explicit) - YouTube
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James, give your dad a BIG hug from me Ok, so I know it's not manly, but hey 
SO pleased for you that the choice has been taken away - it's what you needed!!
Look forward to reading updates - take good care of yourself pal x
Ok, so I know it's not manly, but hey SO pleased for you that the choice has been taken away - it's what you needed!!
Look forward to reading updates - take good care of yourself pal x
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Glad to hear things are getting started on the right foot for you James. You are monumentally blessed to have such caring parents willing to help you to this extent as well, i'm sure you realize that and thank them for it. Having said that, they won't be there forever and all their help and financial backing won't have the least bit of effect until you decide to quit for yourself. I wish you the best of luck in finding the strength within to want to get better for yourself, and translate that into learning the tools you need to do so via whatever treament you pursue.
Best of luck and let us know how things go. You are certainly in a much better place today and that's comforting to know for all of us.
Best of luck and let us know how things go. You are certainly in a much better place today and that's comforting to know for all of us.
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I'm glad to hear you have a great support system And your dad is right - what you did was based on your problem, and in a year, that can of beer won't have the hold it has over you now. That beer won't matter, because it will be so far in the past. Good for you and keep it up!
And your dad is right - what you did was based on your problem, and in a year, that can of beer won't have the hold it has over you now. That beer won't matter, because it will be so far in the past. Good for you and keep it up!
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James,
Glad you are getting up... it is a small trip-over... do not punish yourself.
It takes time to adapt... I believe you need to have a plan for when you encounter this situations... think about it... make sure you do not have anything at home.
You are very very lucky you have your father supporting you so much...
My family does not know and it is harder... but then again my father is an alcoholic.
and we never talk about it.
Having your family support will make a difference.
he will be always there in case you have an emergency breakdown...
Wish you a good recovery
Glad you are getting up... it is a small trip-over... do not punish yourself.
It takes time to adapt... I believe you need to have a plan for when you encounter this situations... think about it... make sure you do not have anything at home.
You are very very lucky you have your father supporting you so much...
My family does not know and it is harder... but then again my father is an alcoholic.
and we never talk about it.
Having your family support will make a difference.
he will be always there in case you have an emergency breakdown...
Wish you a good recovery
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