Mummyto2

and smell the coffee, a past drinking nightmare came into my head, whilst drinking I always wanted to punish myself ie for the drinking, I have long blonde hair, and one night I forget what was said, but I picked up a pair of scissors and cut a big lump of my hair out from the scalp, afterwards I cried and cried, when I woke up the following day I was mortified, my point being how insane the mind goes with the demon p*ss omg scary

PhoenixJ

In my case- very,very, very insane.

Mummyto2

yes and that weren't even the most insane thing I done omg I am quite surprised I am still alive sometimes

PhoenixJ

use the gift of knowing everyday- I tell myself.

Mummyto2

Very true

aasharon90

Feb 1990 I ran into a concrete culvert
at 2 am in the morning on my way home
from a club. Ended up in the hospital 10
day with a punctured spleen and lung
and numerous broken ribs and contusions.

I heal pretty nicely in about 3 months vowing
to never drink again.

Come August 1990, I was right back at
the same club, returning home safe to
another argument, took a hand full of
pills with alcohol wanting to sleep for
along time.

The next day after my babies couldn't
wake me, family stepped in and placed
me into the hands of those capable of
teaching me about my addiction for 28
day.

That was the first step in putting my
addiction in its place and beginning
of a new life living a healthy, sober,
happy life one day at a time.

Come August 11th I will be sober 27yrs.

27 yrs of many one days of listening,
learning, absorbing and applying an
effective program of recovery to help
me achieve the Promises that come
with remaining sober a day at a time.

I will never forget where I came from
and look to past experiences as a reminder
and lessons learned.

Mummyto2

That is fantastic 27yrs, I am 2 weeks, 27yrs seems like a dream right now, but one day at a time, keep reading my books, be on here and try to change my habits and way of thinking, and please god I will get there too

aasharon90

I use to say the same thing yrs ago
when I first started my recovery
journey. So many had yrs of sobriety
and to me that just seemed impossible
to achieve.

The more I listened and learn the more
I understood that they didn't just wave
a magic wand and whala they had yrs of
sobriety.

Once they got the solution, steps or
guideline to living sober one day at
a time and began changing their normal
lifestyle, habits, clearing away the
clutter of the past, making right the
wrongs they had done in their past
and incorporating healthier, helpful
tools in their everyday life and could
and would remain sober and achieved
so many gifts in doing so, then so could
and would I.

That's what I wanted more than anything.

Maybe I wanted to show my family or
make them eat their words, who knows
back then, but for me deep down, I had
to learn to do this for me and not them.

I was so sick and tired of feeling like
a failure with alcohol and my life that
they, my family, doing what I couldn't
nor wouldn't do, to get me help I so
desperately needed at that time in my
life, actually saved my life.

The rest was up to me and I wanted
to live more than I wanted to die once
I knew the reasons why I was so sick
for so long.

One day at a time each and everyday
eventually added up to where I am
today. Just like all those before me.

I followed in their path they paved
for me to follow and for them I am
truly grateful for, because I surely
didn't want to do this remarkable
journey on my own.

Mummyto2

aasharon90

You hang in there and don't succumb
to this horrible disease that affects
every inch of our beings. Stay strong
and you will see the success that follows
in being sober.

Look for all the small miracles that
happen everyday. Waking up sober
today is the first huge miracle of today
for you.

Mummyto2

Yes thank you very much