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I sound dramatic, which I hate. But it's the only way to put it.
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James, I think you know that it is okay to be here, posting, in this time of difficulty. I know that you are drunk, but try to focus and see that everyone here is saying that they care. Do you want to hear this? I guarantee you that if you come back and read this thread sober, you will see the supportiveness.
Life is like that. No matter how bad you feel, you have to stop actively making it worse in order to see the good things.
All you've said about being dramatic, being a bad influence, etc. is just not relevant. Everyone on SR knows what it like to be in the midst of addiction, so we are able to support each other. It isn't weird or a bad influence or anything like that.
Nobody can make your life worth it FOR you. If you want to wait and see how much more miserable you can get, no one here can stop you. But I can hope that you will see soon that you're worth it. You deserve way better.
Life is like that. No matter how bad you feel, you have to stop actively making it worse in order to see the good things.
All you've said about being dramatic, being a bad influence, etc. is just not relevant. Everyone on SR knows what it like to be in the midst of addiction, so we are able to support each other. It isn't weird or a bad influence or anything like that.
Nobody can make your life worth it FOR you. If you want to wait and see how much more miserable you can get, no one here can stop you. But I can hope that you will see soon that you're worth it. You deserve way better.
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I wish I could. I wish I could want to. I have nothing left in me.
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I'm sure I've given you this link before but I hope you'll read through the readinbgs again and keep a note of the numbers.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ease-read.html
I'm sorry that you've decided to do nothing.
I'm even more sorry that your post will alarm and upset people, people that really care about what happens to you.
In the end James it's down to you to do something.
All the advice in the world from us, all the good intent in the world from you is not worth anything if you don't act on it
The hospital is right across the street - that's something many of us can only wish for.
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http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ease-read.html
I'm sorry that you've decided to do nothing.
I'm even more sorry that your post will alarm and upset people, people that really care about what happens to you.
In the end James it's down to you to do something.
All the advice in the world from us, all the good intent in the world from you is not worth anything if you don't act on it
The hospital is right across the street - that's something many of us can only wish for.
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It's just...
I've frozen. Like a deer in headlights. I can't take it any longer.
I'm not suicidal. I do not want to die. At all. I just lost all the fight.
James, 'tired of quitting' is a better place to be than denial. If you can't stop, just try your best to take in enough just to stay calm, get some rest, and then call someone you trust to help you get help...
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James, I think you know that it is okay to be here, posting, in this time of difficulty. I know that you are drunk, but try to focus and see that everyone here is saying that they care. Do you want to hear this? I guarantee you that if you come back and read this thread sober, you will see the supportiveness.
Life is like that. No matter how bad you feel, you have to stop actively making it worse in order to see the good things.
All you've said about being dramatic, being a bad influence, etc. is just not relevant. Everyone on SR knows what it like to be in the midst of addiction, so we are able to support each other. It isn't weird or a bad influence or anything like that.
Nobody can make your life worth it FOR you. If you want to wait and see how much more miserable you can get, no one here can stop you. But I can hope that you will see soon that you're worth it. You deserve way better.
Life is like that. No matter how bad you feel, you have to stop actively making it worse in order to see the good things.
All you've said about being dramatic, being a bad influence, etc. is just not relevant. Everyone on SR knows what it like to be in the midst of addiction, so we are able to support each other. It isn't weird or a bad influence or anything like that.
Nobody can make your life worth it FOR you. If you want to wait and see how much more miserable you can get, no one here can stop you. But I can hope that you will see soon that you're worth it. You deserve way better.
Can you call someone who can fight for you? I know that apathy and you could regret it once you're sober.
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I feel like such an attention seeker. A moron. An idiot who doesn't follow his own advice. A loser. I feel like I'm being a negative influence here. This is terrible.
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Alone is not the problem. I prefer to go alone.
It's just that I lost all the life in me. It's like the life drained out of me and I'm a shell. I know I care, desire, want, need, aspire, it's there. But I'm overwhelmingly empty.
It's just that I lost all the life in me. It's like the life drained out of me and I'm a shell. I know I care, desire, want, need, aspire, it's there. But I'm overwhelmingly empty.
The apathy is your addiction talking.
There's a literal world of difference between sober James and drunk James.
the sober you is the real you - the drunk you is under the influence of a powerful depressant and demotivator.
walk across the road and get some help James - you'll be glad tomorrow
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There's a literal world of difference between sober James and drunk James.
the sober you is the real you - the drunk you is under the influence of a powerful depressant and demotivator.
walk across the road and get some help James - you'll be glad tomorrow
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No one is going to tell you to just give up, so don't ask for that.
james, I've been reading this tonight, and I know you are a good, smart man. when you are sober, you have hope. drunk, none of us have hope. don't feel like a hypocrite, the disease makes us all hypocrites and liars. thankfully, the hypocrisy and ability to lie leave most of us when sober.
c'mon, man, go across the street and be that cool guy again. just cross the street.
c'mon, man, go across the street and be that cool guy again. just cross the street.
One of the things that pains me greatly sometimes about participating in this forum is the physical inability to gently tug on a friends hand and say 'c'mon man, let's go, trust me doing this will help'.
Look down at the bottom of this thread and see how many people are looking at it right now. That's what we are all doing, even though we are not physically there.
You aren't making good judgements because of the alcohol. Trust us and just do what we say, please?
Look down at the bottom of this thread and see how many people are looking at it right now. That's what we are all doing, even though we are not physically there.
You aren't making good judgements because of the alcohol. Trust us and just do what we say, please?
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You guys lead me to just pick up the phone and dial 911. I had trouble speaking and frankly, I'm really not doing too well.
They told me to stay put. They're sending an ambulance. I've been through this before and probably I'll be put in a wheelchair or on a bed and I'll end up in the hospital and they'll do their thing.
The fact that I know the motions of this based on alcohol is not a good sign, but at least I'll be getting some help. Thank God for health insurance. It doesn't matter how often I come in for anything, it'll get paid for.
Anyway, they'll be here any moment. I'll let you know when I get back.
They told me to stay put. They're sending an ambulance. I've been through this before and probably I'll be put in a wheelchair or on a bed and I'll end up in the hospital and they'll do their thing.
The fact that I know the motions of this based on alcohol is not a good sign, but at least I'll be getting some help. Thank God for health insurance. It doesn't matter how often I come in for anything, it'll get paid for.
Anyway, they'll be here any moment. I'll let you know when I get back.
One foot in front of the other. Doesn't matter what your feelings are. Just take action.
Edit - oh I see you've called 911. I'm so happy to hear that!
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