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Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: Colorado
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Excellent. Really good to read this. There is so much relapsing I wonder if this is even possible long term. I have almost a year and was wondering today if I am naive to think I have had my last drink. Thanks for this post. I would love to see more long time sober posts.
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Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: South East England
Posts: 8,009
Thanks guys...I remember reading posts from people with a year or more of sobriety and thinking there must be something special about them, perhaps they weren't REALLY alcoholics? Perhaps they were stronger than me? Or wiser?
Now I know...we are all the same. Honestly, you couldn't have got more of a pathetic self-pitying drunk than me. I was becoming ill, my stomach lining and oesophagus were damaged. I spent every single weekend lying on the sofa recovering from the night before. I was anxious and depressed and at my worst points, suicidal.
Recovery hasn't been a bed of roses either. It is hard work. I have cried and whinged and raged. I have felt overwhelmed and demoralised at times. Things aren't perfect still. As my good friend Itchy told me once...'life doesn't get better, we do'. And that is so true. I still have the same set of issues that I had when I was drinking. It's just...I'm so much stronger and able to face them now. And the best feeling in the world is never again waking with that guilt and shame. Priceless.
If I can do this, you can. Honestly there ain't nothing special about me.
SR is a place where miracles happen that's for sure!
Lots of love to you all xxx
Now I know...we are all the same. Honestly, you couldn't have got more of a pathetic self-pitying drunk than me. I was becoming ill, my stomach lining and oesophagus were damaged. I spent every single weekend lying on the sofa recovering from the night before. I was anxious and depressed and at my worst points, suicidal.
Recovery hasn't been a bed of roses either. It is hard work. I have cried and whinged and raged. I have felt overwhelmed and demoralised at times. Things aren't perfect still. As my good friend Itchy told me once...'life doesn't get better, we do'. And that is so true. I still have the same set of issues that I had when I was drinking. It's just...I'm so much stronger and able to face them now. And the best feeling in the world is never again waking with that guilt and shame. Priceless.
If I can do this, you can. Honestly there ain't nothing special about me.
SR is a place where miracles happen that's for sure!
Lots of love to you all xxx
A simple guy making his way
Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: Maine
Posts: 7,867
Yeah Jeni! You have helped me out of some dark spots over this last year or so. You continue to inspire me so much.
So glad you are part of this SR family.
Keep enjoying life! You deserve it.
Ken
So glad you are part of this SR family.
Keep enjoying life! You deserve it.
Ken
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