Finally the turning point
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Finally the turning point
Quick recap for those who don't know:
Drank heavily for years. Quit August 15th. Relapsed a few days ago. Had to go to the ER the next day, I had gotten close to a stomach bleed. This is day 4 and I'm still sick from it but healing.
Anyway, the last couple of days have been quite introspective for me. My mind went all over the place and I did a lot of thinking. One moment I looked in the mirror at my pale face from being sick and thought "Good God man, what are you doing to yourself?".
I just prepared a new ORS solution to rehydrate since my bowels throw out everything that comes in. I'm a mess.
That's when I looked at the whole picture. It's like one of those zoom out scenes in a movie where you go from, for example, seeing a city to seeing the whole planet. And I looked at myself. I saw the whole picture. And it's so obvious.
It was the turning point for me. It's where it came into full focus that I have to quit drinking and get my life back on track. In that moment, any desire to drink evaporated and I feel a huge relief.
Now I'm motivated to stay sober because of how great life is without alcohol.
I feel good about never drinking again.
J.
Drank heavily for years. Quit August 15th. Relapsed a few days ago. Had to go to the ER the next day, I had gotten close to a stomach bleed. This is day 4 and I'm still sick from it but healing.
Anyway, the last couple of days have been quite introspective for me. My mind went all over the place and I did a lot of thinking. One moment I looked in the mirror at my pale face from being sick and thought "Good God man, what are you doing to yourself?".
I just prepared a new ORS solution to rehydrate since my bowels throw out everything that comes in. I'm a mess.
That's when I looked at the whole picture. It's like one of those zoom out scenes in a movie where you go from, for example, seeing a city to seeing the whole planet. And I looked at myself. I saw the whole picture. And it's so obvious.
It was the turning point for me. It's where it came into full focus that I have to quit drinking and get my life back on track. In that moment, any desire to drink evaporated and I feel a huge relief.
Now I'm motivated to stay sober because of how great life is without alcohol.
I feel good about never drinking again.
J.
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I am glad that you are healing after your relapse James. If i were you i would take what happened with ending up in ER as a big warning. Now is a great time to get sober and work on recovery. Life is much better without alcohol. Wishing you best of luck.
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Yes, I hear you on your realization. Drinking is too much of a fight. The fight to maintain, to limit, to keep things in perspective, the fight to have control. The whole thing is too much. I found freedom in walking away from alcohol. What i am capable of is far greater than what I presented to the world while drinking. Keep looking at the big picture. Keep walking forward. Do not look back.
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Originally Posted by Mizzuno 
Yes, I hear you on your realization. Drinking is too much of a fight. The fight to maintain, to limit, to keep things in perspective, the fight to have control. The whole thing is too much. I found freedom in walking away from alcohol. What i am capable of is far greater than what I presented to the world while drinking. Keep looking at the big picture. Keep walking forward. Do not look back.
)Yes, keep walking towards freedom, James. It is SO worth it
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