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Old 10-02-2013, 09:00 AM   #1 (permalink)
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hey all.

it's been a rough couple of weeks. long story short, 'moderation' turned into a self-fulfilling prophecy. i drank around my daughter and she has gone to live with her dad. i attempted suicide and spent a week on the psych ward. my heart is broken.

i'm home and i'm sober. i'm going to an AA meeting tonight and i'm terrified. but this time really is it. if i can't turn it around there really is nothing left for me.

thanks so much to everyone who has supported me here. i owe you all a massive debt of gratitude.

i'm sober for good this time.
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i'm sober for good this time.
Hope so. Pulling for you.
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I hope this can be your successful attempt at sobriety.


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Old 10-02-2013, 09:13 AM   #7 (permalink)
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my priorities right now are sobriety and regaining the trust of my daughter. i let her down so very badly.

i will do anything and everything to make this right.
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Old 10-02-2013, 09:16 AM   #8 (permalink)
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What you have been through is a lesson for everyone. Why do we think we can moderate and even if we could WHAT WOULD BE THE POINT. I know why I drank and believe me drinking in moderation would just not float my boat!! I am happy you have been able to regain your focus and hope you soon feeling better.
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Old 10-02-2013, 09:16 AM   #9 (permalink)
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Sooner or later we choose to live in sobriety over drunkenness. It's nice here Ippo. You can do this...as a human being...and as a mother who loves her child : )
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Welcome back ippochick, you can do this. Sending best wishes your way.
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Old 10-02-2013, 09:28 AM   #12 (permalink)
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Welcome back, Ippochick. Stay strong and stay close! All my to you...
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Old 10-02-2013, 09:50 AM   #13 (permalink)
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Welcome back I'm glad to see you. I'm sorry for what happened but I think you will learn a hard but valuable lesson that us lot can't moderate. It only ends in disaster. I hope you take care of yourself and Ofcourse you can do this even though your daughters at her dads - you only ever have one mother you to her are irreplaceable. Value yourself - your very much needed.
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Old 10-02-2013, 09:51 AM   #14 (permalink)
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Welcome, ippo. I am glad you are back.
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Old 10-02-2013, 09:52 AM   #15 (permalink)
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IM SO GLAD TO SEE YOU !!!!!!!!!

Welcome back dear sister.

We love you. Yep, I said 'love". We get it. We understand. Our arms are wide open.

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Ippochick! You are here and doing what is needed. I am glad that you found your way back. I am sorry for all that has gone on with you and your family. Stay close Ippo. Keep walking forward. With time things will start to improve. I know that things seem dark right but know that the light will appear again. Hugs to you Ippo.
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I am so glad to see you back! You can do this Ippo, you can! I think you can see that there are a lot of people here who care and we're all rooting for you!

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welcome back, ippo... sending you lots of love.
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Welcome back Ippo. Give yourself credit for accepting things for what they are and realizing what you need to do. After your last thread here i wasn't sure if we'd hear from you again, but i'm glad we have. Let us know how we can help.
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Ippo, so glad to see you back as well! Missed ya and glad to have you onboard again.

Lots of love and hugs to ya! We can all do this, together.
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