An Introduction
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An Introduction
hi everyone~
i have been on this site before under a different user name. i decided to change it for a couple reasons... 1) because i was so embarrassed i kept relapsing while using my old one, and 2) i thought it might be symbolic of this fresh start.
my story is pretty typical. on the surface i have my life in order. i have a stable job, good friends, graduated from an elite university, enjoy going out and partying on the weekends but maintain a relatively sober life during the week.
the problem is, when i do go out, i ALWAYS drink more than the other people i am with. i ALWAYS get drunk. i can NEVER stop after 1-2. i have done reckless and dangerous things and i have failed at several attempts over the course of the last 5+ years to quit.
today is my day one. i went out last night for a bachelorette party and i didn't do anything TOO outrageous, but i just don't like the person i become in general when i drink. i am loud, attention-seeking, flirtatious, and sometimes dangerous. in addition, i have been having some pretty severe anxiety today. this is not unheard of for me, but it seems especially bad this time and i am just so sick of it.
thanks for listening and supporting my latest effort. i look forward to getting to know some of you and starting on this path toward self-reflection and self-imporvement.
i have been on this site before under a different user name. i decided to change it for a couple reasons... 1) because i was so embarrassed i kept relapsing while using my old one, and 2) i thought it might be symbolic of this fresh start.
my story is pretty typical. on the surface i have my life in order. i have a stable job, good friends, graduated from an elite university, enjoy going out and partying on the weekends but maintain a relatively sober life during the week.
the problem is, when i do go out, i ALWAYS drink more than the other people i am with. i ALWAYS get drunk. i can NEVER stop after 1-2. i have done reckless and dangerous things and i have failed at several attempts over the course of the last 5+ years to quit.
today is my day one. i went out last night for a bachelorette party and i didn't do anything TOO outrageous, but i just don't like the person i become in general when i drink. i am loud, attention-seeking, flirtatious, and sometimes dangerous. in addition, i have been having some pretty severe anxiety today. this is not unheard of for me, but it seems especially bad this time and i am just so sick of it.
thanks for listening and supporting my latest effort. i look forward to getting to know some of you and starting on this path toward self-reflection and self-imporvement.
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Welcome Workingonwishes! It's great you've chosen to come back and give this another shot. We know you can do it.
That was me too - drinking would turn me into someone I didn't even recognize. I'd do out-of-character things and invite danger into my life without ever intending to. I also didn't know when to stop once it was in my system. There was never 'just one'. In the end it was easier to stop all together, since I had no control. It felt strange for a while, but it is so wonderful to be free. I don't miss the uncertainty and craziness. Glad you are back.
That was me too - drinking would turn me into someone I didn't even recognize. I'd do out-of-character things and invite danger into my life without ever intending to. I also didn't know when to stop once it was in my system. There was never 'just one'. In the end it was easier to stop all together, since I had no control. It felt strange for a while, but it is so wonderful to be free. I don't miss the uncertainty and craziness. Glad you are back.
to the family once again. 
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