What day of recovery? How do you feel now? How did you feel then?
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Join Date: Sep 2013
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Hi, I have 64 days of sobriety today. 63 days ago, i felt terrible. Just like everyone else. Today, I feel calm, peaceful, awake - i have less anxiety. I feel better about almost every thing. I have bad days - but I have to say most of my days are good, now. 
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Join Date: May 2010
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I'm on Day 8, so it is very fresh in my mind. It was at the end of a weekend, and looking back, I had spent the entire weekend drunk or with a nasty hangover and my house was trashed.
Now it's another end of a weekend, but my house is clean, my mind is clear and I feel much better.
Now it's another end of a weekend, but my house is clean, my mind is clear and I feel much better.
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Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: London
Posts: 130
Originally Posted by silentrun 
Love this thread!!! It's been the people where I am on this road that have comforted me but it's been the people ahead of me that have inspired me.
I went back to March and got my first post ever on here:
I have been an alcoholic for over 10 years. 2 years ago I admitted it to myself and took steps to contain it so noone would try to make me stop. I had no clue how progressive this is and how dark it would get. Recently I had a moment of lucidity and realized I am now at the piont that either I go "all in" or "all out". I feel as if I am in some horror movie and suddenly the movie is paused at the point that the killer has the axe in the air over my head. One drink and the movie resumes and it will be too late. I am over 5 weeks in and experiencing changes. I am terrified to fail. I don't know if I am being granted a second chance or just a chance to get my affairs in order before this things takes me down for good
What I would say to that now:
Good. Use that fear it is going to save your life. Recovery isn't the alternate reality the hell your in is. Don't worry about anything else right now but just don't drink. That is your only assignment right now. Later on you will be given more. You don't know what is real and what is chemically induced. Give yourself some time and the bad will fall away. Also the winning lottery numbers for next Saturday are.....
I went back to March and got my first post ever on here:
I have been an alcoholic for over 10 years. 2 years ago I admitted it to myself and took steps to contain it so noone would try to make me stop. I had no clue how progressive this is and how dark it would get. Recently I had a moment of lucidity and realized I am now at the piont that either I go "all in" or "all out". I feel as if I am in some horror movie and suddenly the movie is paused at the point that the killer has the axe in the air over my head. One drink and the movie resumes and it will be too late. I am over 5 weeks in and experiencing changes. I am terrified to fail. I don't know if I am being granted a second chance or just a chance to get my affairs in order before this things takes me down for good
What I would say to that now:
Good. Use that fear it is going to save your life. Recovery isn't the alternate reality the hell your in is. Don't worry about anything else right now but just don't drink. That is your only assignment right now. Later on you will be given more. You don't know what is real and what is chemically induced. Give yourself some time and the bad will fall away. Also the winning lottery numbers for next Saturday are.....
You showing there is a better future ahead gives me the will to carry on. Hope it works for others too!
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Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: London
Posts: 130
Thanks to everyone who has replied to this thread since I started it this morning!
I've seen some similarities from various different people in myself and their positive outcomes have made me feel better about not drinking tomorrow.
Day 4 for me is over. Bring on day 5!
I've seen some similarities from various different people in myself and their positive outcomes have made me feel better about not drinking tomorrow.
Day 4 for me is over. Bring on day 5!
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Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: northern michigan. not the U.P.
Posts: 15,281
So how long have you been sober?3081 days
How do you feel now? sane and serene.
Why did you stop drinking and how did you feel then? I felt a useless worthless,hopelss,helpless POS. it was stop drinking or kill myself.
How do you feel now? sane and serene.
Why did you stop drinking and how did you feel then? I felt a useless worthless,hopelss,helpless POS. it was stop drinking or kill myself.
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Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Posts: 15,238
So how long have you been sober?
How do you feel now? Why did you
stop drinking and how did you feel then?
Let's see.....Been sober 23 yrs. A many ODAAT,
one days at a time added together to get me where
I am at today.
Happy Joyous Free is how I feel.
Family intervention took me to the doors of
a rehab facility where I made a decision to
stay for 28 days, with a 6 week outpatient
after care program attached.
I felt angry, hurt, like a criminal as I sat
in the back of a police car after an attempt
to want to end my poor, pathetic, miserable,
dishonest life.
2 weeks into rehab I had the willingness
and openmindedness to do whatever I
needed to do to stay sober. I could, I would,
I did and still do.
Recovery is a blessing and gift to never take
lightly.
How do you feel now? Why did you
stop drinking and how did you feel then?
Let's see.....Been sober 23 yrs. A many ODAAT,
one days at a time added together to get me where
I am at today.
Happy Joyous Free is how I feel.
Family intervention took me to the doors of
a rehab facility where I made a decision to
stay for 28 days, with a 6 week outpatient
after care program attached.
I felt angry, hurt, like a criminal as I sat
in the back of a police car after an attempt
to want to end my poor, pathetic, miserable,
dishonest life.
2 weeks into rehab I had the willingness
and openmindedness to do whatever I
needed to do to stay sober. I could, I would,
I did and still do.
Recovery is a blessing and gift to never take
lightly.
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Join Date: Dec 2012
Location: Washington, DC
Posts: 987
Great thread, it's always helpful to read other people's experiences.
I am at 7.5 months now. So, I don't know, 220-something days, maybe? Hard to believe, really.
I can tell you the number one thing that is better in my life, unequivocally: I am at peace. Like, real peace. Not some manufactured, chemical-induced peace that only temporarily masquerades insanity.
No, I am not floating around on clouds or dancing with my dog in the front yard (most days) but I am no longer riddled by anxiety, obsessive thoughts, harrowing depression, and a list of physical ailments that no one in their 30s should have been experiencing.
I am present in my life. For the good parts and the bad parts. I am no longer apathetic.
I show up. I show up for me and I show up for others.
I wasn't showing up for anyone when I was drunk.
I am at 7.5 months now. So, I don't know, 220-something days, maybe? Hard to believe, really.
I can tell you the number one thing that is better in my life, unequivocally: I am at peace. Like, real peace. Not some manufactured, chemical-induced peace that only temporarily masquerades insanity.
No, I am not floating around on clouds or dancing with my dog in the front yard (most days) but I am no longer riddled by anxiety, obsessive thoughts, harrowing depression, and a list of physical ailments that no one in their 30s should have been experiencing.
I am present in my life. For the good parts and the bad parts. I am no longer apathetic.
I show up. I show up for me and I show up for others.
I wasn't showing up for anyone when I was drunk.
Behold the power of NO
Join Date: Jan 2013
Location: WA
Posts: 7,764
So how long have you been sober? 252 days
How do you feel now? I am feeling content and at peace.
Why did you stop drinking and how did you feel then? I went on a three week binge (knowing I am an alcoholic) and that was scary. I could not continue and I could not stop. At the time I was seriously suicidal looking up and arranging the logistics of my suicide. Horrible space to be in. I was also completely isolating (I was a closet drinker, live alone and drank alone).
How do you feel now? I am feeling content and at peace.
Why did you stop drinking and how did you feel then? I went on a three week binge (knowing I am an alcoholic) and that was scary. I could not continue and I could not stop. At the time I was seriously suicidal looking up and arranging the logistics of my suicide. Horrible space to be in. I was also completely isolating (I was a closet drinker, live alone and drank alone).
BSober1
Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: Stafford, VA
Posts: 16
Day 1 again...I quit for 8 years over a year ago...I have been meaning to/trying to quit again now for 4 months. When I quit before it was because I went out in a foreign country and had no memory of anything until I was in a taxi coming home...scared sober... After 8 years, I felt older and more mature...I can handle it...NOPE! I am letting things slip that are not ok (my son just started Kindergarten and I am not doing what I need to do for him and my business needs me to be 100%), all I want to do is go home and drink wine to buzz or drunkenness. I have spent all of today with a terrible hangover, and have found this website...I WILL quilt this time! Now, I have other fun stuff too...I have insomnia and night sweats when I am drinking... My mind is foggy when I do drink the night before... So, might as well just go through the quitting and get to the other side ASAP!
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,438
been sober since 2007.
The first few months for rough for me - I was ill and drinking was all I knew...but things slowly got better.
I had a lot of other things in my life to sort out as well - I wasn't the kind of drinker whose only problem was drinking...but from the second year onwards I had most of that sorted.
I was in prison and now I'm free
My life now is not always joyful - but it is a joy.
D
The first few months for rough for me - I was ill and drinking was all I knew...but things slowly got better.
I had a lot of other things in my life to sort out as well - I wasn't the kind of drinker whose only problem was drinking...but from the second year onwards I had most of that sorted.
I was in prison and now I'm free
My life now is not always joyful - but it is a joy.
D
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Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: London
Posts: 130
Anyone got any more inspiring posts? I always find it so interesting and encouraging to hear other people's experiences.
So how long have you been sober? How do you feel now? Why did you stop drinking and how did you feel then?
So how long have you been sober? How do you feel now? Why did you stop drinking and how did you feel then?
BSober1
Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: Stafford, VA
Posts: 16
Day 1 again...ugh! Feeling tired, mad at myself and terrible crick in my neck! I knew better than to buy that bottle of wine, but really thought I could just have one drink - I had 3...I know it may not seem like much...didn't even get drunk. However, today I feel like poop! No MORE!!
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Join Date: Sep 2013
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Originally Posted by BSober1
Day 1 again...ugh! Feeling tired, mad at myself and terrible crick in my neck! I knew better than to buy that bottle of wine, but really thought I could just have one drink - I had 3...I know it may not seem like much...didn't even get drunk. However, today I feel like poop! No MORE!!
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Join Date: Aug 2013
Location: Engerland
Posts: 897
Ground zero was end of a 30 day (37 bottle) binge.
I was thin and yellow.
Vomiting and passing blood.
One can of soup in 30 days and unable to eat.
Could walk only 5 yards before needing to rest.
Hiding on the boat with doors shut and curtains drawn for the duration.
Full of fear beyond any that i have ever felt..
No contact with friends ,family or loved ones save my partner who left bottles on the boat.
She knew i was dying but was afraid, alone and desperate.
No job, Godless hopeless and simply wishing for the end.
Insane..........
183 days later.......
I have Faith.
My health has returned.
My partner is happy.
My employer has taken me back.
My boat is clean as am i, and we both smell good!
My sponsor (37 years sober) loves and trusts me.
Helping other alcoholics to get well one day at a time.
Fear lessens each day as i accept myself and my right to be.
Attending meetings daily.
Awakening at last after 35 years in a Godless nightmare!!
Not drinking.
Just the same as you..............
Gx
I was thin and yellow.
Vomiting and passing blood.
One can of soup in 30 days and unable to eat.
Could walk only 5 yards before needing to rest.
Hiding on the boat with doors shut and curtains drawn for the duration.
Full of fear beyond any that i have ever felt..
No contact with friends ,family or loved ones save my partner who left bottles on the boat.
She knew i was dying but was afraid, alone and desperate.
No job, Godless hopeless and simply wishing for the end.
Insane..........
183 days later.......
I have Faith.
My health has returned.
My partner is happy.
My employer has taken me back.
My boat is clean as am i, and we both smell good!
My sponsor (37 years sober) loves and trusts me.
Helping other alcoholics to get well one day at a time.
Fear lessens each day as i accept myself and my right to be.
Attending meetings daily.
Awakening at last after 35 years in a Godless nightmare!!
Not drinking.
Just the same as you..............
Gx
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