kyara

Hi I recieved a message from Kieth asking permission to use my post in a 12 step discussion. That is more than fine, only this program will not allow me to privatly message him back until I have at least 5 posts.

I was recently in the hospital. Fell off my electric bike - cracked 7 ribs, broke my collar bone and had fluid and air build up in my lung. It was extremly mis diagnosed at the first hospital I went to and therefore lived 2 more weeks before anything was done about it.
Anyhow, my point is - I am alive to tell about it. I met a lot of interesting people during my hospital stay, but one little old lady in particular. Made me realize how lucky I was, how much I have compared to most. She taught me the importance of being myself, being honest and kind and truly living life as I want to. It made me reflect on my "bad experience"with AA as well as my bad choices in life. I have always been one to "please everyone", weather it suited me or not. And I believe that may contribute to my drinking career that started about 5 - 6 years back. It has defenitly contributed to my slips in this past year.
I seem to have a whole new outlook on life, "be myself", don't deliberatly hurt someones feelings, but know that my thoughts and beliefs do count for something and should be heard. Keep a safe distance from situations and persons that bring you down. Through out all of my bad experiences with AA, I did mention how the old timers were fantastic, and perhaps that is who I need to stick by, along with this group.
I also discovered that I want it, and I want it now. I am always going 100 miles an hour trying to prove to the world I am capable and hard working and loving and so on... Some one told me everything happens for a reason, and even my accident, with as much pain as it brought to me and my family, it has taught me to slow down!! Life is what you make it.
I am going to try the AA thing again, and just be completely honest with myself and those around me
Thank you to all gave me some advice from my first post - truly to apprieciat it.

Thanks

soberhawk

Great to hear it is going well kyare, despite the fall.

kyara

after reading all of the responses to my post, and the past few weeks that I have had to deal with, I have learned alot. Especially when someone wrote - when you go to a mtg, you are there to stay stober, sticking with the old timers and not getting caught up in the high school drama of it all. Much appreciated.
I am really enjoying this Sober Recovery, I get so much out of people's posts and responses to my own.