Sober on my birthday
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Sober on my birthday
Hey everyone, I thought I'd drop in and share Some thoughts. First, thanks to all of you who post and reply on here. Whether its someone talking about struggles or great things, you are all helping me.
Today I just got back from an aa meeting. I've been all over the place lately. Since I joined here in June or July, I've had several "rock bottom" moments. Each one lower than the last. Pushing aside the health, financial, and personal issues I've caused, I think I've hit a new low, though it's helped me.
Since July I've worked with my sponsor. Had a few severe relapses, but I've also grown and learned a lot of things. I'm on 18 days today. I just found out my career is at stake. One more slip and I can lose my job and never hold the license I need to do my job. Forever. It was enough to make me say, screw it and drink. But I didn't because deep down I'm feeling change. I want to wake up now instead of feeling dreadful that I have to face another day. I don't feel wonderful, but things are changing.
Tomorrow is my birthday and I'm going to wake up sober on it, and celebrate it sober for the first time in 14 years. I'm happy about that. My life is far from being perfect now, but it's getting better than it could be if I were drinking. And with that, I'll keep coming back.
I want the good life. At my meetings, 50+ guys telling me how good their lives are now...that means something. So, just for tomorrow, here's to doing the next right thing.
Today I just got back from an aa meeting. I've been all over the place lately. Since I joined here in June or July, I've had several "rock bottom" moments. Each one lower than the last. Pushing aside the health, financial, and personal issues I've caused, I think I've hit a new low, though it's helped me.
Since July I've worked with my sponsor. Had a few severe relapses, but I've also grown and learned a lot of things. I'm on 18 days today. I just found out my career is at stake. One more slip and I can lose my job and never hold the license I need to do my job. Forever. It was enough to make me say, screw it and drink. But I didn't because deep down I'm feeling change. I want to wake up now instead of feeling dreadful that I have to face another day. I don't feel wonderful, but things are changing.
Tomorrow is my birthday and I'm going to wake up sober on it, and celebrate it sober for the first time in 14 years. I'm happy about that. My life is far from being perfect now, but it's getting better than it could be if I were drinking. And with that, I'll keep coming back.
I want the good life. At my meetings, 50+ guys telling me how good their lives are now...that means something. So, just for tomorrow, here's to doing the next right thing.
Congrats on 18 days as well ...
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