It's never too late to hit a new low...
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Wet brain. OmG.
KdbnSLC. I live inNorth Salt Lake.
I truly treasure the input. I do. I wouldn't post here if I didn't. Yes, I'm tired of this. How did this thing. Become so powerful in my life.
KdbnSLC. I live inNorth Salt Lake.
I truly treasure the input. I do. I wouldn't post here if I didn't. Yes, I'm tired of this. How did this thing. Become so powerful in my life.
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Join Date: May 2013
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Originally Posted by foolsgold66 
Raider, please stop talking about your husband and the trip and all that external stuff and solve the dang problem. Get in the car, take a cab, ride a bus, whatever, walk in the front door of a rehab and check in. None of that other stuff will matter at if you continue on this path, as you may well lose it all.
Raider - please consider getting help now. You don't want to end up like I did. You think it can't get any worse? Trust me...trust me it can.
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Hey Raider - you know all the horror stories, and you see some of them already unfolding in front of your eyes. I'm not sure any "scare tactics" are really of any use at this point.
I would ask you directly - what exactly is it that's stopping you from getting help? Whether that be rehab, meetings, counseling, whatever. I believe you have insurance, and you are retired so work is not an issue, correct? There's got to be something holding you back. Tell us what it is so we can help you overcome it.
I would ask you directly - what exactly is it that's stopping you from getting help? Whether that be rehab, meetings, counseling, whatever. I believe you have insurance, and you are retired so work is not an issue, correct? There's got to be something holding you back. Tell us what it is so we can help you overcome it.
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Originally Posted by Raider
I'm afraid of failing again
Originally Posted by Raider
I'm afraid I don't want sobriety bad enough
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Originally Posted by Raider
Scott,
I'm afraid of failing again
I'm afraid I don't want sobriety bad enough
I'm afraid of failing again
I'm afraid I don't want sobriety bad enough
And yes,we're here for you. We all have big shoulders as we've all struggled to climb out of the hole.
So hang in their Raider!
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Originally Posted by Raider
Scott,
I'm afraid of failing again
I'm afraid I don't want sobriety bad enough
I'm afraid of failing again
I'm afraid I don't want sobriety bad enough
I think the fact that you come here on a regular basis does show that you want it though, even if you don't realize it. At some point you are going to have to just trust yourself and others enough to just get the process started. Why not now?
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I've heard it said that the only "failure" is giving up.
And you are clearly not giving up.
I think what you might need is a nice long stretch without distractions.
You may be getting distracted from your goal by all the drama around you.
It must be very tough to quit when your partner is still drinking.
And you are clearly not giving up.
I think what you might need is a nice long stretch without distractions.
You may be getting distracted from your goal by all the drama around you.
It must be very tough to quit when your partner is still drinking.
I could see peace instead of this
Join Date: Sep 2013
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Originally Posted by Raider
Scott,
I'm afraid of failing again
I'm afraid I don't want sobriety bad enough
I'm afraid of failing again
I'm afraid I don't want sobriety bad enough
I said it to you before, I went on blind faith. I didn't know what to expect, what would happen next and I was scared. But I just went anyway, because I knew the alternative was worse.
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Raider - I'm glad you wanted to talk about this & aren't in denial. We all care about you and want so much for you to get well. Please do whatever it takes to start the healing process. You aren't going to miss the craziness - a little buzz just isn't worth it anymore - we're talking about your life here.
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Internet is a bit spotty here. I'm not ignoring you. Well after all your responses, at least I don't feel like the worst one on the planet. Thank you for that. Thank you very much. Tha means a lot.
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Hi Raider. I hope you will think about getting back home and out of that isolated drinking cabin. Really, that is what it sounds like your other half is there to do, so how awful for you.
I want you to get help and get better. You need help to get better. I hope you do it sooner rather than later. And stay here all dayand night if you need to. Stay connected.
I want you to get help and get better. You need help to get better. I hope you do it sooner rather than later. And stay here all dayand night if you need to. Stay connected.
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Join Date: Jun 2013
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Originally Posted by Raider
I'll be back in Utah in two weeks. Then an alcohol screening, then a bed date. I feel like I am losing my mind. I have to g a grip. For crying out loud. My husband is a drinker. I don't how I can convince him to go home early. I know there is liquor here at the cabin. Every time he goes out, he brings another bottle back. Progressive has a whole new meaning. I should have wrote you guys last night instead of calling my parents. Tried to text my Pastor last night. Crap. Apparently I lost command of using a keyboard. I'm scared. I have read on SR of those that have been to several rehabs. That's scary.
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Originally Posted by advbike
Oh for heaven's sake how do you expect to stop when your spouse is a drinker and there is booze there? I sure couldn't do it. No offense but why not just get out of there? Why do you have to wait for him? Call a cab, take the car or have him drive you home. You're sick, you have a fatal disease and you need help.
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