Started drinking again
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Way to go LessG ! I quickly flicked from page 1 to 6 of this thread noting the improvements you have made in only 6 days ! Think how much better it is going to be each day you are sober ! Keep rockin' !
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Can you identify why you drank again? For me, each time I relapsed, I usually could not identify any trigger....although I think I have continued to have the obsession that I could drink like a "normal" person (someday). After 3 relapses, each following YEARS of sobriety, I am humbled and beaten. Starting over...day 8 now with no lingering notion that I can EVER drink like a "normal" person. Try not to be too hard on yourself. These are all just numbers....you can do this!
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This happened to me many times, LG. As trudging said, all thoughts of ever drinking normally must be forgotten. I always fantasized that I could use willpower to save myself. It never worked once. We know you can start again and make it this time. Never give up on a better life for yourself.
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You were just fine this AM, what happened less? Whatever it was drinking is not the solution as you know. What can we do to help you get off this rollercoaster? The choice is ours to drink or not, the key is learning how to make the right choices.
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Hey Lessgravity, please don't be too hard on yourself, we have ALL been there, myself only last weekend. I chose to look at it like a learning experience, what will I do differently next time? For me, my last slip helped me see how sick I truly am and helped me commit on a higher level to my sobriety. It also helped me work the first step of AA which I was struggling with and show me how powerless I actually am when I didn't think I was and needed to prove it to myself. You have not let this turn into a full on relapse, nor should you. I have read so many of your posts and find you to be compassionate, caring, generous with your advice and wise. You've helped me on many occasions. Just get up, dust yourself off and start over, taking with you the lessons of this last slip. It's not how many mistakes we make that is a judge of our success, it's what we learn from those mistakes and what we do about them that counts. I know next time (and hopefully there won't be a next time) I slip you will probably be saying exactly these words to me, so in foresight, take your own good advice. Hugs to you.
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Originally Posted by dwtbd 
It really sounds like you were lied to. It sounds like some one convinced you that the end result of drinking would be pleasurable, but it sounds like that is not in fact the case.
I know if I drank the immediate effect would be pleasurable, but I also know that unless I maintained that alcohol content in my bloodstream the physical pleasure would diminish and psychological displeasure would replace it. So given what I know, for me, I can't drink because I would not be able to handle not drinking after I started. That may be hyperbolic , but in essence that is the crux of it.
wish you well
I know if I drank the immediate effect would be pleasurable, but I also know that unless I maintained that alcohol content in my bloodstream the physical pleasure would diminish and psychological displeasure would replace it. So given what I know, for me, I can't drink because I would not be able to handle not drinking after I started. That may be hyperbolic , but in essence that is the crux of it.
wish you well
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