MartyTheDrunk

I haven't had to much of hard time today.. I started getting the shakes around 5PM but it actually benefited me as I had boxing at 7PM and was able to use it to take out all my stress on the bags and sparring. The problem is I can't sleep and starting to crave a drink again. I laid in bed for 2 hours twist and turned now imma watch a movie. I made a ice water and used a lime to pretend its a vodka tonic which kinda of helped me mentally. But I just can't sleep any suggestions? And does this happen to everyone? If so how long? Can I take Tylenol PM or just train myself to sleep again? I've been so used to drinking till I pass out for over 8 years everyday I am legit laying there trying to figure out how to fall asleep. I've counted down from 300 3 times and that didn't work. Tried to microwave milk because I am so pathetic I had to google "how to fall asleep" and gave those suggestions nothing working

Taking5

Insomnia is very common in early recovery. Don't worry about it. The is an insomnia forum here as well.

MartyTheDrunk

Yeah man I mean it doesn't really matter much to me now because I lost my job but this **** sucks. Do people use sleep medicine to fall asleep, I might smoke some weed before bed tomorrow to knock me out but not sure if that's a no no when trying to recover. Never been addicted to that **** haven't smoked in 6 months

Victoria74

Hi,
I am on Day one too, I lost the count on how many times I´ve tried.
But I have thought a lot about how to explain to strangers why I don´t drink and I think the perfect excuse is to "blame" it on excersise. I have set up a goal that I will participate in a running competetion next year, and everybody knows alcohol is not good if you want to get in shape. Also someone here gave me the simple advise to say that I don´t feel good if I drink. I don´t think people will react as much as you think. During my sober periods I never found this to be a problem. And the people who know me just thought it was good I didn´t drink...
Best of luck to you!!

MartyTheDrunk

Hi Victoria!
I never cared what people think of me which may be part of problem haha but explaining I'm a raging alcoholic is kinda a diff animal to me. That running competition seems like a great idea to keep busy and I will def do that as well! Need all the exercise i need after this depressing weight gain! Good luck with your journey as well!!!! Lets make it day 2 Tom!

MartyTheDrunk

On my 4th day and I already relapsed. I just suck first 3 days were an absolute breeze, then as soon as football came on I made an absolute monster made a $1k bet on Rams. +3 and now pounding alone in room. I just don't think It's possible to quit drinking as I'm a season ticket holder for patriots drink and tailgate every home game and drink and bet every game. I couldn't even make it past 4 days just absolutely terrible I hate what I've become hopefully Rams cover so the hangover won't be to bad.

Dee74

Marty lots of folks here watch football and don't drink.
You can do that too - but only if you're prepared to make changes.

what about finding more support for your addictions?

D