Somebody Wake me When this is Over! Had a tough week last week. Drank most of the day Monday, nothing Tuesday, drank heavy Wednesday, all day Thursday, nothing Friday, all afternoon and night Saturday, and a half pint on Sunday evening. Physically, I don't feel too terrible, but I'm an emotional wreck. I haven't exercised since last Tuesday, and exercise is such a benefit for me. I feel completely worthless, and my nerves are so on edge, that if I hear a pin drop I feel like I'm going to scream. Having that said, it was nearly impossible to be a good husband and father this weekend. Kids wanting to play, be silly, etc, made me feel like I was going to lose it. I know if I get a few days under my belt that I can get my sobriety back, but starting out feels like trying to find the beginning of a circle. Lately, I don't know what to think. I don't have the emotional energy right now to invest in myself. I know I need to regroup and make a change, but I don't know where to turn. . . |
Not that it helps much, but you're not alone. I'm right with you Ethos. |
Just get the first day in and go from there. I'm in the same boat as you get some good sleep and exercise so you have the strength to start |
Originally Posted by Ethos23
(Post 4197777)
I don't have the emotional energy right now to invest in myself. I know I need to regroup and make a change, but I don't know where to turn. . . At this point the consequences of your drinking aren't registering anymore, so it's got to come from within. |
Originally Posted by ScottFromWI
(Post 4197799)
You are investing a lot of your emotional energy currently by figuring out ways to drink and feeling bad about it afterwards. How about just re-applying some of it towards finding a way to NOT drink? Or maybe an AA or NA meeting? Maybe a call to a local addiction center or counselor? It sounds like you are spending a lot of time drinking too, maybe start by investing one of those drinking hours into a sober hour? At this point the consequences of your drinking aren't registering anymore, so it's got to come from within. |
You can do this. One day at a time you can rack up sober days until being sober is the normal way to be. :) |
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