Life is Too Beautiful to Stop Trying
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Life is Too Beautiful to Stop Trying
I'll admit, I'm crying as I write this. I'm not sure yet if that's because I'm happy or sad.
I thought my life was over. I'll be homeless soon, I've been disowned by my family, and I still can't seem to stop drinking. But I stepped outside today and something happened...
The light of the sun hit me. The blue of the sky was brilliant and lovely. The fresh air filled my lungs and enlivened my veins.
I walked to the park and sat there, surrounded by dozens of seagulls. I had looked upon that skyline countless times; the boats in the harbor, the cormorants diving for fish, the gorgeous houses and mansions in the distance that I'll never be able to afford. All at once, the seagulls took off with no explanation, all crying out to each other. It was a secret understanding to leave, something I'll never be privy to.
My point is: life is beautiful. If you give it a chance to be. Even if you lose your job, your belongings, your home there is still life out there, and it's beautiful.
I thought my life was over. I'll be homeless soon, I've been disowned by my family, and I still can't seem to stop drinking. But I stepped outside today and something happened...
The light of the sun hit me. The blue of the sky was brilliant and lovely. The fresh air filled my lungs and enlivened my veins.
I walked to the park and sat there, surrounded by dozens of seagulls. I had looked upon that skyline countless times; the boats in the harbor, the cormorants diving for fish, the gorgeous houses and mansions in the distance that I'll never be able to afford. All at once, the seagulls took off with no explanation, all crying out to each other. It was a secret understanding to leave, something I'll never be privy to.
My point is: life is beautiful. If you give it a chance to be. Even if you lose your job, your belongings, your home there is still life out there, and it's beautiful.
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Very nice perspective - sometimes we just have to be still long enough to notice that things and possessions are only matter - sooner or later things lose their newness and become boring to us - we have to find contentment and peace in our self. I always say beauty isn't something you can see. It's a way. An aura. Love your post 
sometimes living and breathing and being alive is just opening our eyes to our surroundings.
sometimes living and breathing and being alive is just opening our eyes to our surroundings.
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Thank you for posting that... it really is true, life is precious and beautiful. I am so sorry that you are going through a very hard time, and I hope that you can somehow avert being homeless. Please keep coming back, and trying to change your life. Seeing life through Sober eyes adds to appreciation. It is so worthwhile being in the present, out of alcoholic fog... I wanted to tell you how much your post spoke to me..have faith that your life can get better..
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I hope this peace you found today stays with you - I hope it's maybe gave you hope that there is so much more to life but we have to allow ourselves to see it and feel it. Drinking is only ever fake. Nothing is real in that world. I hope you stop drinking.
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Thanks for this post Alpha. Its all too easy to forget about the little things that make life great when i feel consumed by my own worries and thoughts sometimes. I hope things get better for you and you can find a way to work through the things you are facing. Don't ever stop trying to get to a happy sober place. You are worth it.
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