This will be a long day...
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This will be a long day...
I will spend all but a couple of hours today alone until 10pm. My boyfriend is a plumber and has a long shift today.
I really don't want to be alone for that long during the fragile state I'm in. On the other hand I don't feel like going anywhere because I am having a flare up of fibromyalgia, and am currently in a lot of pain. I would have a friend or family member come over but they all work except for my mom and she's sick.
I suppose I will spend a lot of time here, on fb, watching TV and taking naps.
I am feeling depressed with panic attacks already this morning and really hope I can make it through this day without a severe mental breakdown. I would like to get back to the woman that is easy going, happy and with a since of humor, I have not seen her for awhile.
The bright spot of the day is I do not plan on drinking.
I really don't want to be alone for that long during the fragile state I'm in. On the other hand I don't feel like going anywhere because I am having a flare up of fibromyalgia, and am currently in a lot of pain. I would have a friend or family member come over but they all work except for my mom and she's sick.
I suppose I will spend a lot of time here, on fb, watching TV and taking naps.
I am feeling depressed with panic attacks already this morning and really hope I can make it through this day without a severe mental breakdown. I would like to get back to the woman that is easy going, happy and with a since of humor, I have not seen her for awhile.
The bright spot of the day is I do not plan on drinking.
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Hi, Toomuch.
It's surely a bright spot that you don't plan drinking. Every day which you are not drinking, you are making a step to meet that beautiful woman you've described. Don't let addiction hider her from you - hide your beautiful and happy self.
Look at this lonely time as on a special date with the precious person that's inside. She is wonderful, whatever BS AV tells you.
Reading and posting here helps a lot!
Take care, stay positive)
It's surely a bright spot that you don't plan drinking. Every day which you are not drinking, you are making a step to meet that beautiful woman you've described. Don't let addiction hider her from you - hide your beautiful and happy self.
Look at this lonely time as on a special date with the precious person that's inside. She is wonderful, whatever BS AV tells you.
Reading and posting here helps a lot!
Take care, stay positive)
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Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: Berlin, MD
Posts: 78
I know that lady's in there. U are not alone. And boy do I understand needing ur boyfriend ...just how I felt yesterday. I won't see mine for a week at least. I'm here for u. All day I'll b checking in. U got me through yesterday ..my turn today...u might b back on tmrw. We will make it.
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Join Date: Jul 2013
Location: Seattle, WA
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Loneliness is the biggest trigger for me to-as someone who doesn't really have any friends and surely no BF, I find it difficult to fill all of my time with other things. Please try and stay positive through your day.
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