what is wrong with me??
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Join Date: Sep 2013
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what is wrong with me??
well i'm gonna make it short, im 20 years old and i've been heavily drinking for like 5 years or so and daily for the last 3 years with an average of 70 drinks per week and i think i can't control it anymore.
i'm a med student which is something that surprises everybody even i'm surprised that i've made it so far .
i wake up everyday believing that yesterday was the last day i put a drop of alcohol in my mouth but around 8 pm it all starts again.
should i start doing something different to get my mind off alcohol, and about quitting; should it be gradually or how .
and ummm thanks .......
i'm a med student which is something that surprises everybody even i'm surprised that i've made it so far .
i wake up everyday believing that yesterday was the last day i put a drop of alcohol in my mouth but around 8 pm it all starts again.
should i start doing something different to get my mind off alcohol, and about quitting; should it be gradually or how .
and ummm thanks .......
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Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
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Your so young. 
I was 30 yrs. old when
I was sent into rehab where I began to
learn about alcoholism and its affects on
me and others around me.
You are in Medical School and what a gift.
How awesome you are to be in the perfect
place at the right time to learn about alcoholism.
All the tools and knowledge are right there
at your finger tips to learn. Alcohol, drugs,
meds, all have affects on each of us differently.
Learn how it is affecting you.
Then apply all that wonderful, awesome knowledge
to your life and become the best person you
are meant to be for many yrs. to come.
I learned. I applied and now im 23yrs sober.
I was 30 yrs. old whenI was sent into rehab where I began to
learn about alcoholism and its affects on
me and others around me.
You are in Medical School and what a gift.
How awesome you are to be in the perfect
place at the right time to learn about alcoholism.
All the tools and knowledge are right there
at your finger tips to learn. Alcohol, drugs,
meds, all have affects on each of us differently.
Learn how it is affecting you.
Then apply all that wonderful, awesome knowledge
to your life and become the best person you
are meant to be for many yrs. to come.
I learned. I applied and now im 23yrs sober.
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Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: Berlin, MD
Posts: 78
Wow...welcome. u are already taking the first biggest step admitting that to yourself and seeking support. I'm 38 and new to this so I cannot offer a lot of advice..but u'll find help and knowledge and strength here. U should b proud of yourself. U are wise beyond your y hears. Keep reading and asking for help. Good luck.
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Hi, Ronnie. Welcome to SR!
There's nothing wrong with you.
And it's great that you've recognized this issue being so young - the earlier you kick addiction, the better.
A lot of folks here can't moderate drinking, so preferred to quit completely. I used to promise myself it would be "just one glass of wine" which somehow mostly turned into bottle..
About doing differently - don't let addiction deceive you and make you believe "you can have just one"... IMHO, if you don't want alcohol to ruin your life - it's better quit. Gradually or not - can't tell you. You are a med). It won't hurt to consult a specialist about that.
You may need some extra support, like AA, secular groups - there are many methods to quit. Explore around the site.
You'll find a lot of support and useful info and advices here, on SR.
And, if I may suggest, do it know. Don't postpone till tomorrow, Monday, or New Year. Live is so much better, when sober.
Best wishes to you.
Take care and keep posting.
There's nothing wrong with you.
And it's great that you've recognized this issue being so young - the earlier you kick addiction, the better.
A lot of folks here can't moderate drinking, so preferred to quit completely. I used to promise myself it would be "just one glass of wine" which somehow mostly turned into bottle..
About doing differently - don't let addiction deceive you and make you believe "you can have just one"... IMHO, if you don't want alcohol to ruin your life - it's better quit. Gradually or not - can't tell you. You are a med). It won't hurt to consult a specialist about that.
You may need some extra support, like AA, secular groups - there are many methods to quit. Explore around the site.
You'll find a lot of support and useful info and advices here, on SR.
And, if I may suggest, do it know. Don't postpone till tomorrow, Monday, or New Year. Live is so much better, when sober.
Best wishes to you.
Take care and keep posting.
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Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: Perth, Western Australia
Posts: 6,047
It sneaks up on you doesn't it? You will feel enormous relief when you quit. It will be a huge weight off your shoulders.
Don't be afraid to seek help, online and in person.
Don't be afraid to seek help, online and in person.
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Join Date: Mar 2013
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Welcome ronnie, Lots of support and advice here. If i were you i would work on getting some other activity in place for when 8pm rolls around so you dont pick up the first drink. I found the key to quitting drinking initially for me was changing old habits and getting the necessary support and a good routine in place. Keeping myself and my mind busy so i had less time to focus on drinking and avoiding any places or people that may trigger me to want to drink was so important early on. Glad you are here. Wishing you well.
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Location: Littleton, Co.
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You have admitted to yourself that there is a problem and that is the first step. SR is a great place to find support and see yourself in some of the threads that you read. You are not unique in this and we can all relate.
BTW it sounds like you are a very successful med student and that is something to be proud of. Do not let the alcohol take you down. Keep posting... You can conquer this.
BTW it sounds like you are a very successful med student and that is something to be proud of. Do not let the alcohol take you down. Keep posting... You can conquer this.
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Join Date: Sep 2013
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BTW...chat room group at 9pm. Will b first time for me. I thought I had to work today and I wud b craving when I got off so I had planned to login. No work today but I'll still b posting. Hope to chat w u there.
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Don't let drink ruin your life you have everything ahead of you and you could have such a great life.Or you could choose to drink and let the drink determine what sort of life you will have. Best of luck
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