Welcome hopeforme. I think it'll help you to be here - the Friends & Family Forum might be especially helpful. You're certainly not alone. We're glad you joined us.
You are so much more than the worst thing you've ever done. Fr. Greg Boyle
A little voice deep inside me said, "Hello, I am here." It was a small voice, & sounded as if it were buried underneath the cushions of my couch. It was my soul...I had forgotten it.